05-09-2023, 10:12 AM
Made arrangments for next Tuesday for a vocal coaching session with a woman I remember from my studies - hopefully she'll help me out with my vocal difficulties at it would be a real shame to waste pretty much 12 years of hard work. She sounds good for it and doesn't charge too much which is nice.
Otherwise, things are kinda slow. Doing translation jobs whenever I have any. Been reading books. Listening to OGSF (we're soon going to reach the four month mark - should I listen for six? I kinda feel about ready to switch programs). Still suffering from thoughts that I'm a loser and a failure at life and still feeling very lonely. Could probably use EPHRA or something like that - though I'll wait for the updated version (the previous one does not include shielding and I'm not keen on running any program without shielding). Been having dreams in response to the program.
It does appear that I have a little bit less guilt and shame to contend with, difficult to say on the fear though I've done some things that normally would make me really nervous (like asking for help) and went through them without a hitch pretty much. Been wondering which program would be best to get out of the "I'm a failure" loop - something that would bring about good tidings. DMSI is a pretty safe bet on the woman front (interesting things are bound to happen if my experience on running ver. 3.5 before OGSF are any indicator), though USLM or UMS would be better for general stuff. Feel free to chime in with ideas here if you're reading this journal.
Otherwise, things are kinda slow. Doing translation jobs whenever I have any. Been reading books. Listening to OGSF (we're soon going to reach the four month mark - should I listen for six? I kinda feel about ready to switch programs). Still suffering from thoughts that I'm a loser and a failure at life and still feeling very lonely. Could probably use EPHRA or something like that - though I'll wait for the updated version (the previous one does not include shielding and I'm not keen on running any program without shielding). Been having dreams in response to the program.
It does appear that I have a little bit less guilt and shame to contend with, difficult to say on the fear though I've done some things that normally would make me really nervous (like asking for help) and went through them without a hitch pretty much. Been wondering which program would be best to get out of the "I'm a failure" loop - something that would bring about good tidings. DMSI is a pretty safe bet on the woman front (interesting things are bound to happen if my experience on running ver. 3.5 before OGSF are any indicator), though USLM or UMS would be better for general stuff. Feel free to chime in with ideas here if you're reading this journal.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley