08-10-2021, 02:22 AM
Between adding some hybrid loops and doing a liver flush i'm finding it hard to think today.
Interactions with people are slightly different in a good way. Even around friends a few days ago felt a bit more connected and not as stuck on one thing and enjoying myself more.
I've noticed going into some stores staff saying hi in an obvious way, on sunday it was so pronounced with one guy that I was even a little like 'what's going on'. As soon as I walked in the door he was like 'how's it going' really loudly and then was all happy to chat when I went through the checkout.
In the same shop a few days before a girl working smiled and I went and chatted briefly, which isn't something i've really done for a while.
Earlier today I kind of felt like getting into arguments, not necessarily starting them but sharing some opinions in a place I usually wouldn't where it might be controversial. Now tonight maybe after listening to a few hybrid loops I really don't feel like arguing and it's like I don't even have the energy to do so and I even went and deleted the posts. Like earlier not really caring about what they think, and now suddenly being much more sensitive to that.
The last 2 days i've had interest from much more attractive women on dating sites. Well just matched with 1 on bumble and 1 liked me on POF.. but noticably more attractive than usual. Last night it seemed all good, then suddenly after the second message she doesn't reply and I was getting annoyed at it. But it's also partly like I don't have the energy to get as annoyed as I would have in the past.
Another thing that I find interesting, though can't explain it is that i've been having the urge to listen to music I used to be into, well I still am into grunge type stuff but don't listen to it as much at my computer. Usually i'm listening to chillout at my computer or when working. I did mention this in an earlier post where I was listening to some aggressive music, now the last few days it's been other music like Alanis Morisette.
Maybe a few other things, but finding it hard to think right now. OF continues to be alot more subtle than most programs and I notice more of it when I go out somewhere though it's still pretty subtle.
Also notice i'm getting annoyed at weird inconsistencies with people. Like the woman on POF suddenly not answering again after liking me, or a woman today when I was in the supermarket getting served who I used to work with walking past and happily and enthusiastically saying "hi, I haven't seen you for ages" and I was like "hey, what have you been doing?" which was the first thing to come to mind and I turned around to talk and she just goes 'same old' and kept walking.
Interactions with people are slightly different in a good way. Even around friends a few days ago felt a bit more connected and not as stuck on one thing and enjoying myself more.
I've noticed going into some stores staff saying hi in an obvious way, on sunday it was so pronounced with one guy that I was even a little like 'what's going on'. As soon as I walked in the door he was like 'how's it going' really loudly and then was all happy to chat when I went through the checkout.
In the same shop a few days before a girl working smiled and I went and chatted briefly, which isn't something i've really done for a while.
Earlier today I kind of felt like getting into arguments, not necessarily starting them but sharing some opinions in a place I usually wouldn't where it might be controversial. Now tonight maybe after listening to a few hybrid loops I really don't feel like arguing and it's like I don't even have the energy to do so and I even went and deleted the posts. Like earlier not really caring about what they think, and now suddenly being much more sensitive to that.
The last 2 days i've had interest from much more attractive women on dating sites. Well just matched with 1 on bumble and 1 liked me on POF.. but noticably more attractive than usual. Last night it seemed all good, then suddenly after the second message she doesn't reply and I was getting annoyed at it. But it's also partly like I don't have the energy to get as annoyed as I would have in the past.
Another thing that I find interesting, though can't explain it is that i've been having the urge to listen to music I used to be into, well I still am into grunge type stuff but don't listen to it as much at my computer. Usually i'm listening to chillout at my computer or when working. I did mention this in an earlier post where I was listening to some aggressive music, now the last few days it's been other music like Alanis Morisette.
Maybe a few other things, but finding it hard to think right now. OF continues to be alot more subtle than most programs and I notice more of it when I go out somewhere though it's still pretty subtle.
Also notice i'm getting annoyed at weird inconsistencies with people. Like the woman on POF suddenly not answering again after liking me, or a woman today when I was in the supermarket getting served who I used to work with walking past and happily and enthusiastically saying "hi, I haven't seen you for ages" and I was like "hey, what have you been doing?" which was the first thing to come to mind and I turned around to talk and she just goes 'same old' and kept walking.