Since the new version will be out soon I should report. I have little desire to do so on the forum but i'll make an effort to describe some things.
OGSF is very subtle, I was getting annoyed with it but it's only like month 3 I could notice some things. Still subtle.
First I seem to have been more aware of my comfort zone and how to step out of it a little. And also a very interesting realization, i'll write that after I describe other things.
Have been on a few porn binges on OGSF. I also did on UH but then I didn't at all when I was seeing a woman, but now not seeing anyone it comes up. Basically it's been that i've wanted to talk to women, been overwhelmed by the fear and frustrated and then eventually leads to porn. What's interesting, and what also happened on UH, each time that happens I then have a strong urge to turn up the volume of the subliminal.
I've been digging into it by writing and discovered a few things and made a bit of a shift in the fear lessening, but then talking to a few women briefly more fear though not as strong. It's lead me to the realization that the way I live my life reflects how women respond to me, in that if I give into fear with simple things and stay in my comfort zone, when I give into the fear and don't do that thing it's like my 'vibe' shuts down and lessens and fear becomes more.
But then if I go out of my comfort zone slightly, even on something unrelated then after that my vibe opens up and I get more attention, plus I seem to be able to talk to a few women after that where before I was blocked. For example doing physical exercises at the beach to confront caring what people think of me, then I had the urge to play with some balancing on a fence kind of thing even with people walking past. After that I talked to a few women because it lessened the fear with women.
Never had these realizations before and I feel that OGSF lead me to it.
Still I can't point to anything massive and obvious. The thing I can point to the most is something I think i've mentioned. Almost every night I have trauma come up and out of my body. Think TRE (Trauma release exercises) where you kind of shake it out, it's almost like that is automated on OGSF and through my experience with Somatic Trauma work i'm able to go with it.
A few nights ago it got very intense, growling, making sounds, tons of shaking. I even turned on my lamp and had to get up and shadow fight intensely to get it out. It seems to be a process of discharging stuck fight and flight. I felt good after. The next day my vibe seemed to be more grounded and opened up. The having to get up to shadow fight has happened 1 or 2 other times on OGSF but not on anything else. It might sound weird, but it is good.
That's been one thing that's kept me going on OGSF, the fact that I know when trauma is coming out of my body, and through my experience with somatic trauma work i'm able to go with it. It comes up like this to discharge and heal it. The thing is it's not usually obvious what the effects are, unless it's an intense one like a few nights ago. It's hard to see what it's doing day to day, but I can say for a fact this did NOT happen this much before OGSF. Even on UH it would happen occasionally, on OGSF almost every night, big sign of the trauma healing programming doing something.
Also i'm not usually aware of what that trauma is connected to other than a few times. It started with my upper body and shoulders, now it's been the lower body, and around the groin area which I know is some kind of sexual trauma, but i'm not usually aware of what specific thing it's related to. I was trying to analyze but had to take myself back to "it's okay, just stay with what's happening in my body."
Recently I had my longest amount of nights on. 8 nights on. Then 1 night off, 2 nights on and then 4 nights off. Now i'm continuing almost as usual. Sometimes earlier on 12 loops, recently 8 loops a night most nights on.
What suggestions would I have for an upgraded OGSF? -
-Patience programming, it's so subtle it's hard to know what's going on sometimes.
-Expand on trauma healing module, I don't know how exactly but with how regularly my body brings trauma up to discharge it tells me this module is valuable.
-A special focus on abandonment and rejection healing. This may be more specific to me, but I know it's quite common and it's a big part of my guilt, shame and fear and likely also for others.
-An expansion on self-esteem, self love, self forgiveness and similar.
-Forgiveness of others would be valuable, as I see that as a contributor to guilt, shame, fear, trauma.
-Since Shannon said the DRS takes up more energy, and with MM it has the grounding shield to leave more energy for execution, i'm thinking the grounding shield would be better.
DRS isn't obvious for me, nor does it seem to reflect things back. I've had a few times where someone has come at me quite strongly. I don't really get these things in person, but online. Had it earlier in the week someone come at me strongly, going off on me for expressing things and my opinion, calling me names and such, really trying to tear me down. So it either didn't do much, or it made him fight more. It's almost like sometimes it can trigger people more. I don't know how to explain it.
Can't think of any other suggestions. I'd like to be able to but i'm sure Shannon has some ideas and I look forward to the 5.11g version. I partly don't want to stop this version as it's doing things, but I will soon because I want time between them mostly so I can notice the difference between versions and observe how the 5.11g version is improved for me.
I've been having some quite strong resistance at times mostly in the form of "I want to use another program". Like Money Magnet for example, logically it makes sense that my deep programming around limitations with money are one of my biggest issues and not much has shifted it.. so I really need it cos it's the biggest point holding me back in life.
Some shifts in the last year or two in that I started a beginners martial arts class which I likely wouldn't have before, but 6 months later i'm still stuck at 3 students, not much response to posts about it. And in my other business things my motivation is on and off, for a few months I was doing well working on it every day but then I hit a point last week where I just didn't know what actions to take, and got massive frustration and almost wanting to scream and hit stuff in that moment. And since then i've missed several days working on my own things and it almost shut it down. MM should help move past things like that for me, as it's like these blockages/limiting beliefs literally block me even being able to think what to do next to move forward.
But OGSF with what it's been doing subtly, and that these emotions are pretty deep in me, i've committed to OGSF for now. Especially with a newer version.
But keep tossing up between Money Magnet, or even Maverick. Alot of the things in the description of "don't use this if" match my life, but several times especially during OGSF i've felt strongly like "I don't give a fuck, i'm so sick of my own limitations".
After exploring my resistance in writing this come up.. and it almost got me to start Maverick since it's all about reaching your full potential.
It was a few pages, but some parts that apply here..
If I reach out to life. I will be destroyed, I will be hurt, I will be bullied, picked on, I will be rejected, judged, shamed, guilted, attacked.
That if I reach out to life I might die.
I’M FUCKING SICK OF NOT REACHING MY FULL POTENTIAL.
If I die I won’t reach my full potential.
But I’m also scared of all the pain and hurt and things deep inside I’d have to face to reach my full potential, I’m scared of all the rejection, hurt and abandonment I might find, I’m scared that I’ll just be rejected MORE in the process.
If I fully engage with life, then I’m scared I might get hurt, bullied, attacked, bad things might happen, that I’ll die and then I won’t be able to reach my full potential.
But if I don’t engage with life then I won’t reach my full potential anyway.
WTF.
Why am I scared of not reaching my full potential?
Because something has always held me back, something always sabotages me and destroys my results.
I’m afraid that if I engage with life I will die and not reach my full potential.
But I’m also scared that if I reach my full potential that I might die.
OGSF is very subtle, I was getting annoyed with it but it's only like month 3 I could notice some things. Still subtle.
First I seem to have been more aware of my comfort zone and how to step out of it a little. And also a very interesting realization, i'll write that after I describe other things.
Have been on a few porn binges on OGSF. I also did on UH but then I didn't at all when I was seeing a woman, but now not seeing anyone it comes up. Basically it's been that i've wanted to talk to women, been overwhelmed by the fear and frustrated and then eventually leads to porn. What's interesting, and what also happened on UH, each time that happens I then have a strong urge to turn up the volume of the subliminal.
I've been digging into it by writing and discovered a few things and made a bit of a shift in the fear lessening, but then talking to a few women briefly more fear though not as strong. It's lead me to the realization that the way I live my life reflects how women respond to me, in that if I give into fear with simple things and stay in my comfort zone, when I give into the fear and don't do that thing it's like my 'vibe' shuts down and lessens and fear becomes more.
But then if I go out of my comfort zone slightly, even on something unrelated then after that my vibe opens up and I get more attention, plus I seem to be able to talk to a few women after that where before I was blocked. For example doing physical exercises at the beach to confront caring what people think of me, then I had the urge to play with some balancing on a fence kind of thing even with people walking past. After that I talked to a few women because it lessened the fear with women.
Never had these realizations before and I feel that OGSF lead me to it.
Still I can't point to anything massive and obvious. The thing I can point to the most is something I think i've mentioned. Almost every night I have trauma come up and out of my body. Think TRE (Trauma release exercises) where you kind of shake it out, it's almost like that is automated on OGSF and through my experience with Somatic Trauma work i'm able to go with it.
A few nights ago it got very intense, growling, making sounds, tons of shaking. I even turned on my lamp and had to get up and shadow fight intensely to get it out. It seems to be a process of discharging stuck fight and flight. I felt good after. The next day my vibe seemed to be more grounded and opened up. The having to get up to shadow fight has happened 1 or 2 other times on OGSF but not on anything else. It might sound weird, but it is good.
That's been one thing that's kept me going on OGSF, the fact that I know when trauma is coming out of my body, and through my experience with somatic trauma work i'm able to go with it. It comes up like this to discharge and heal it. The thing is it's not usually obvious what the effects are, unless it's an intense one like a few nights ago. It's hard to see what it's doing day to day, but I can say for a fact this did NOT happen this much before OGSF. Even on UH it would happen occasionally, on OGSF almost every night, big sign of the trauma healing programming doing something.
Also i'm not usually aware of what that trauma is connected to other than a few times. It started with my upper body and shoulders, now it's been the lower body, and around the groin area which I know is some kind of sexual trauma, but i'm not usually aware of what specific thing it's related to. I was trying to analyze but had to take myself back to "it's okay, just stay with what's happening in my body."
Recently I had my longest amount of nights on. 8 nights on. Then 1 night off, 2 nights on and then 4 nights off. Now i'm continuing almost as usual. Sometimes earlier on 12 loops, recently 8 loops a night most nights on.
What suggestions would I have for an upgraded OGSF? -
-Patience programming, it's so subtle it's hard to know what's going on sometimes.
-Expand on trauma healing module, I don't know how exactly but with how regularly my body brings trauma up to discharge it tells me this module is valuable.
-A special focus on abandonment and rejection healing. This may be more specific to me, but I know it's quite common and it's a big part of my guilt, shame and fear and likely also for others.
-An expansion on self-esteem, self love, self forgiveness and similar.
-Forgiveness of others would be valuable, as I see that as a contributor to guilt, shame, fear, trauma.
-Since Shannon said the DRS takes up more energy, and with MM it has the grounding shield to leave more energy for execution, i'm thinking the grounding shield would be better.
DRS isn't obvious for me, nor does it seem to reflect things back. I've had a few times where someone has come at me quite strongly. I don't really get these things in person, but online. Had it earlier in the week someone come at me strongly, going off on me for expressing things and my opinion, calling me names and such, really trying to tear me down. So it either didn't do much, or it made him fight more. It's almost like sometimes it can trigger people more. I don't know how to explain it.
Can't think of any other suggestions. I'd like to be able to but i'm sure Shannon has some ideas and I look forward to the 5.11g version. I partly don't want to stop this version as it's doing things, but I will soon because I want time between them mostly so I can notice the difference between versions and observe how the 5.11g version is improved for me.
I've been having some quite strong resistance at times mostly in the form of "I want to use another program". Like Money Magnet for example, logically it makes sense that my deep programming around limitations with money are one of my biggest issues and not much has shifted it.. so I really need it cos it's the biggest point holding me back in life.
Some shifts in the last year or two in that I started a beginners martial arts class which I likely wouldn't have before, but 6 months later i'm still stuck at 3 students, not much response to posts about it. And in my other business things my motivation is on and off, for a few months I was doing well working on it every day but then I hit a point last week where I just didn't know what actions to take, and got massive frustration and almost wanting to scream and hit stuff in that moment. And since then i've missed several days working on my own things and it almost shut it down. MM should help move past things like that for me, as it's like these blockages/limiting beliefs literally block me even being able to think what to do next to move forward.
But OGSF with what it's been doing subtly, and that these emotions are pretty deep in me, i've committed to OGSF for now. Especially with a newer version.
But keep tossing up between Money Magnet, or even Maverick. Alot of the things in the description of "don't use this if" match my life, but several times especially during OGSF i've felt strongly like "I don't give a fuck, i'm so sick of my own limitations".
After exploring my resistance in writing this come up.. and it almost got me to start Maverick since it's all about reaching your full potential.
It was a few pages, but some parts that apply here..
If I reach out to life. I will be destroyed, I will be hurt, I will be bullied, picked on, I will be rejected, judged, shamed, guilted, attacked.
That if I reach out to life I might die.
I’M FUCKING SICK OF NOT REACHING MY FULL POTENTIAL.
If I die I won’t reach my full potential.
But I’m also scared of all the pain and hurt and things deep inside I’d have to face to reach my full potential, I’m scared of all the rejection, hurt and abandonment I might find, I’m scared that I’ll just be rejected MORE in the process.
If I fully engage with life, then I’m scared I might get hurt, bullied, attacked, bad things might happen, that I’ll die and then I won’t be able to reach my full potential.
But if I don’t engage with life then I won’t reach my full potential anyway.
WTF.
Why am I scared of not reaching my full potential?
Because something has always held me back, something always sabotages me and destroys my results.
I’m afraid that if I engage with life I will die and not reach my full potential.
But I’m also scared that if I reach my full potential that I might die.