ASC 5g journal

[Kol]

Your journal is awesome man. Some of your posts make me slightly jealous haha. I plan on running ASC after a 6 month run of OGSF.

Thank you. Im thinking about OGSF aswell as it seems to surface lhe last few days and notice some shame coming up. really wonder how ASc will deal with this, it keeps shifting lately and working on deeper and deeper levels.

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day 67 ( 29 days remain + x amount of days

ASc gets really addictive at this point. Its so profound, at times it blows me away. I notice this sense in my stomach right now and its spreading through my whole body, my legs are tingling at times and I feel again an shift coming up. As the sub digs deeper and works deeper, more doubts come on. yesterday evening I went in an fully seductive state, its all so fluid right now, that at times it creeps me out, which is an matter of getting adjusted to it. There is simply nothing I cant do at this point, its getting more solid and form. My mind searches automatically towards what lies beyond and I literally feel the sub working currently deeper and deeper.

The eye lock gets an deeper quality, an seductive quality. An communication of "i know" I feel when I gaze I can seduce woman beyond their defenses. Its surpassing those defenses. It feels weird, hot even when this happens. Its still an passing state and there are other things besides seduction that I aim for. I seem to easily shift states which can get confusing at times, perhaps not fully synchronizing, I dont know. The sub will take care of this. There is only abundance right now, Im aiming or many more new hights and growth with the sub and am thinking of going beyond the 96 days. Not even sure if this is the sub, and it doesnt really matter.

As the sub goes deeper, new doubts come up. Right now it seems to be directly filetered, replaced and dealt with. I need to write this all still out, only to make sense of it. I still do journal and track somewhat offline.

Im getting out of my head more and more, which feels like it triggers confidence. Slightly anxious as I write this. I cant really put words to it what it is to be in the zone, other then that it is free, fluid and flow.

Im getting more and more selflove and acceptance. before I would spike, but now Im getting more calm, content and accepting in it, giving n sense of deeper settling. This calmness causes new ways for the sub to be worked on aswell as crystalizing it further. Im still thinking as to how solid it can get, if there will be an continuüm eventually of pure confidence. Im aswell looking into OGSF and this causes other responses in myself, shedding some light to it, dropping slightly mood. Im not Always equally confidence, I have moments that I still feel somewhat hesitating towards leaving the house and present myself, when anxious, not fully solid. Unsure where those thoughts come from as it is an turning tables as to when Im fully confidence ( aka, being the centre )

All that surfaces, feelings of defensiveness and doubt are dealt with. If I get such responses I know it will be dealt with. When this surfaces, my confidence seems to be covered, dips until something clicks and break through. It can feel like all is gone but I have no cocnept of how it once was, realising the sub has solid ground. I can only grow further from now on. Learning to let it pass, ASC seems to dominate more and more over these feelings like some wave breaking through and washing over until it hits, as it feels, full force.

Im getting more sexual aswell, random sexual states and abundance in it. Neediness makes no sense for me right now. Im feeling like an leader and leading the girl right now. I have moment of utter disinterest and seriousness, other times Im more flirty and playfull, experimental aswell.

What the sub seems to do is like an drone ( the skynet kind ) and targets it all what ever comes in sight. My dreams get more weird aswell. Im still getting triggered all over the place as I atleast always seem to be aware of something being worked at.

Right now it goes all smooth. Im indifferent but sense tension.

My look on the subs are shifted towards self-development/improvement and working at. not girls or any of that, but self improvement, making it feel women will come as an bonus as i keep developing. Attitude is fine aswell. I had panicky feelings come out of nowhere regarding the subs and how it will mess me up somehow ( guilt?) Perhaps tied to upbring.

Im feeling more mature and able to handle, an shift in attitude towards feelings has taken place. Utterly dominant right now, the leadership qualities really settle at this very moment.

Yes, I am inspired by others but eventually evaluate it by myself. and 180 degrees turn is close by.

Going out with an deeper sense of purpose, tied to high value, self image and confidence.

Seem to have lots of new interests, such as social dynamics, social structures and my mind being more curious and moving further above and beyond.

Dress high value, seduce the world. Again indentifying with sigma.
Im not yet there where i want be, I feel this sub is capable of an ton of more changes in myself, unexpected changes aswell as it goes deeper through my subconscious, digging up and bringing it to awareness to release it afterwards and change. An unapologetic eye contact and solid confidence is what I have in mind currently, yet embracing the changes seems to be an obvious paradox in it. Disrupt changes, non static.