Day 66 ( 30 days remain + ?? )
last couple of days are pretty confusing. I have had several breakthroughs that led to absolute confidence and release of inhibitons but currently its more of an confusion going on. Curently my look on journalling is one of to much monitoring. Even looking at it is to much basically and causes an negative mood. Woke up feeling not so much other then an sadness after listening to the sub at night. Its an faint negative sense. Re-occuring doubt in the morning.
Last wednesday it showed how much the attraction is clicking. It was unsettling, im feeling slightly aggressive when Im thinking about it. One older woman kept seeking intense eye contact with me, almost crawling in my eyes. This happenss lots lately with older woman. It made me unconfortable even. I tend to have extreme defensive reactions at memories sometimes causing anger.
Yesterday evening i had an deep breakthrough with the sub, realisating that it works incredibly deep in my subconscious, experienced an deeper and more liberated drive, electrifying confidence and radiation, an shift in reality. Looking in the mirror I looked more mature, more solid and radiated confidence in my whole being. Hesitation is replaced with choice. All that holds people back I no longer experience or is even significant.
My standards are high. Women I find attractive 3 days agao are now sorty of "meh". Women out of your league is an limited belief and illusion. My world has totally shifted in that regard. I also seem to lower value mentally towards woman. It happens almost on reflex. The "yeah she is cute but..." This clicks on an deep level.
The sub seems to deal with guilt, fear and shame aswell? Atleast, it seems to work on it and I will go with it. Its getting more and more insignificant and the responses are brought to light and I go beyond them. As it doesnt make sense to be and doesnt reflects confidence. It is replaced with confidence.
Becoming aware that there might be GSF attached to my eye contact and involved. I tend to talk myself down at times. Other times I am fully in the zone.
Im having an more solid understanding of what I want eventually, plans and am getting more clear in that. Its easy and obvious, Not going to reflect back to back. It has to do with hesitation which the sub deals further with.
ASC tend to kick in when having re-occuring doubts rising such as escalation and interest like at work. Im very sure of it now. Its an push in the back kind of thing, an totally and utterly deservedness.
Edit: I dont know what has happened but im feeling overwhelmed in an positive way. I do indentify strongly with batman character in terms of abundance and social break away. It started with feeling an sense in my chest/heart area, an sort of butterfly feeling but positive ( heart chakra? for lack of better word, no attachment to it whatsoever ) and now it feels like an stepping up the game, an total and utter confidence, beyond all I experienced. It feels magnetic like it can consume my reality right now. This is intense, all brakes are gone now and yet, I feel indifferent to any action. Almost paralyzing with abundance yet some fears come up awell.
I really need time to process this. Holy sh*t. The sub seems to attack all on its path. Like turning it, dissolve it, changing it, and dealing with. I feel it very very strongly influencing curerently. paralyzing beliefs are attacked aswell, like, looked into, just to discard it afterwards and step over. This is such an strong breakthrough. Unstoppable.
last couple of days are pretty confusing. I have had several breakthroughs that led to absolute confidence and release of inhibitons but currently its more of an confusion going on. Curently my look on journalling is one of to much monitoring. Even looking at it is to much basically and causes an negative mood. Woke up feeling not so much other then an sadness after listening to the sub at night. Its an faint negative sense. Re-occuring doubt in the morning.
Last wednesday it showed how much the attraction is clicking. It was unsettling, im feeling slightly aggressive when Im thinking about it. One older woman kept seeking intense eye contact with me, almost crawling in my eyes. This happenss lots lately with older woman. It made me unconfortable even. I tend to have extreme defensive reactions at memories sometimes causing anger.
Yesterday evening i had an deep breakthrough with the sub, realisating that it works incredibly deep in my subconscious, experienced an deeper and more liberated drive, electrifying confidence and radiation, an shift in reality. Looking in the mirror I looked more mature, more solid and radiated confidence in my whole being. Hesitation is replaced with choice. All that holds people back I no longer experience or is even significant.
My standards are high. Women I find attractive 3 days agao are now sorty of "meh". Women out of your league is an limited belief and illusion. My world has totally shifted in that regard. I also seem to lower value mentally towards woman. It happens almost on reflex. The "yeah she is cute but..." This clicks on an deep level.
The sub seems to deal with guilt, fear and shame aswell? Atleast, it seems to work on it and I will go with it. Its getting more and more insignificant and the responses are brought to light and I go beyond them. As it doesnt make sense to be and doesnt reflects confidence. It is replaced with confidence.
Becoming aware that there might be GSF attached to my eye contact and involved. I tend to talk myself down at times. Other times I am fully in the zone.
Im having an more solid understanding of what I want eventually, plans and am getting more clear in that. Its easy and obvious, Not going to reflect back to back. It has to do with hesitation which the sub deals further with.
ASC tend to kick in when having re-occuring doubts rising such as escalation and interest like at work. Im very sure of it now. Its an push in the back kind of thing, an totally and utterly deservedness.
Edit: I dont know what has happened but im feeling overwhelmed in an positive way. I do indentify strongly with batman character in terms of abundance and social break away. It started with feeling an sense in my chest/heart area, an sort of butterfly feeling but positive ( heart chakra? for lack of better word, no attachment to it whatsoever ) and now it feels like an stepping up the game, an total and utter confidence, beyond all I experienced. It feels magnetic like it can consume my reality right now. This is intense, all brakes are gone now and yet, I feel indifferent to any action. Almost paralyzing with abundance yet some fears come up awell.
I really need time to process this. Holy sh*t. The sub seems to attack all on its path. Like turning it, dissolve it, changing it, and dealing with. I feel it very very strongly influencing curerently. paralyzing beliefs are attacked aswell, like, looked into, just to discard it afterwards and step over. This is such an strong breakthrough. Unstoppable.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
