02-10-2016, 02:06 AM
day 64 ( 2 month mark - 32 remains + whatever needed )
Im feeling extremely sexy currently, like my whole existence is seduction at the moment and all inhibitons are gone at this point. It feels liberating and increases as I type this. I woke up with resistance and depressed even after 2 months of listening to the sub.
before I would think about sex in an frame of how an alpha would do it, showing/no showing, being available, non available, high value and what not. Now I'm going beyond this and it is what it is. Its utterly clear how much the sub influences, I cant break away from it even if I want and feel it currently in my whole being. It feels great, transcendental. Im so sure im myself, with my seduction, playfullness, all being able to switch on like an lightbulb on an dime. My whole mind circulates around abundance at this point strongly, like an magnet ( manifestation? )
My mind is getting new ideas and my head is filled with new beliefs and ideas right now, an familiar feeling of growing towards an new level. Its all not lineair, atleast, not from my experience. Im feeling solid aswell at this point, confident but smooth. ASC spreads itaself through me and there are different form s of confident. i also have certain trigger thoughts which can trigger me into state.
Im sort of indifferent towards who i attract right now, and my eye contact is like an seeker, scanning and then hit.In my mind its like all girls who i meet eye contact with will smile.
I have no clue as to where the sub will lead me. No matter how heavy the resistance I keep on listening. I have had multiple instances when I think about it that i felt discouraged and wanted to stop listening to the sub. Just press play and overcome. My eyes radiate. feel seductive more and more and had an understanding uyesterday as how this ties to ASCC after all, instead of an separated reality. Its all coming together and its really great. Its an turn and switch when looking back. I have an deeper understanding of it all which can only reach new hights, my approach anxiety reduces more and more, Im being thrown back at myself and being the best I can be. High value, if people get attracted so be it. If not, fine. It doesnt matter. Chain reaction as my attraction keeps improving. My head is currently flowing and glowing.
I also feel more in control of my choices. Still at times, although seldom finding myself questioning. I can put my attention towards an project and being busy with that. I can walk away from an girl, sort of testing her, but keeping my confidence solid. This feels very attractive aswell and playfull. Interested but not. Non neediness.
Still thinking about running AM 6.0, for some reason I find myself wanting to run it more and more, yet at other times ASC puts me into place to keep it running. Do wonder what will happen if I stop listening to ASC an switch to AM 6.0. Now I want to run BASE...
Thinking about pimping my appartment up. Single person beds are the devils work, so that has to go. Stricter cleaning of my appartment aswell. re/organizing it all.
Porn turns me off yet my attraction increases. Im indifferent right now, not really apathic but more of an whatever kind of state yet options open. My libido is again very low. Interest is gone.
Will read the unchained man: alpha male 2.0 aswell as `no more mister ncie guy` Something clicks currently around this, being more teasing, push pull playfull. Guess the nice guy programming is purged? Also need to finish Sigma shock.
It just doesnt matter,
Im feeling extremely sexy currently, like my whole existence is seduction at the moment and all inhibitons are gone at this point. It feels liberating and increases as I type this. I woke up with resistance and depressed even after 2 months of listening to the sub.
before I would think about sex in an frame of how an alpha would do it, showing/no showing, being available, non available, high value and what not. Now I'm going beyond this and it is what it is. Its utterly clear how much the sub influences, I cant break away from it even if I want and feel it currently in my whole being. It feels great, transcendental. Im so sure im myself, with my seduction, playfullness, all being able to switch on like an lightbulb on an dime. My whole mind circulates around abundance at this point strongly, like an magnet ( manifestation? )
My mind is getting new ideas and my head is filled with new beliefs and ideas right now, an familiar feeling of growing towards an new level. Its all not lineair, atleast, not from my experience. Im feeling solid aswell at this point, confident but smooth. ASC spreads itaself through me and there are different form s of confident. i also have certain trigger thoughts which can trigger me into state.
Im sort of indifferent towards who i attract right now, and my eye contact is like an seeker, scanning and then hit.In my mind its like all girls who i meet eye contact with will smile.
I have no clue as to where the sub will lead me. No matter how heavy the resistance I keep on listening. I have had multiple instances when I think about it that i felt discouraged and wanted to stop listening to the sub. Just press play and overcome. My eyes radiate. feel seductive more and more and had an understanding uyesterday as how this ties to ASCC after all, instead of an separated reality. Its all coming together and its really great. Its an turn and switch when looking back. I have an deeper understanding of it all which can only reach new hights, my approach anxiety reduces more and more, Im being thrown back at myself and being the best I can be. High value, if people get attracted so be it. If not, fine. It doesnt matter. Chain reaction as my attraction keeps improving. My head is currently flowing and glowing.
I also feel more in control of my choices. Still at times, although seldom finding myself questioning. I can put my attention towards an project and being busy with that. I can walk away from an girl, sort of testing her, but keeping my confidence solid. This feels very attractive aswell and playfull. Interested but not. Non neediness.
Still thinking about running AM 6.0, for some reason I find myself wanting to run it more and more, yet at other times ASC puts me into place to keep it running. Do wonder what will happen if I stop listening to ASC an switch to AM 6.0. Now I want to run BASE...
Thinking about pimping my appartment up. Single person beds are the devils work, so that has to go. Stricter cleaning of my appartment aswell. re/organizing it all.
Porn turns me off yet my attraction increases. Im indifferent right now, not really apathic but more of an whatever kind of state yet options open. My libido is again very low. Interest is gone.
Will read the unchained man: alpha male 2.0 aswell as `no more mister ncie guy` Something clicks currently around this, being more teasing, push pull playfull. Guess the nice guy programming is purged? Also need to finish Sigma shock.
It just doesnt matter,
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
