02-08-2016, 11:27 PM
Day 10:
My dreams were very emotional last night, but I can only really remember one part. I was screaming hysterically at my family in a house I grew up in. I woke up feeling drained and expected today to be another low day, and it mostly was.
However, I noticed a significant change. I have a hard time crying even if I'm by myself. There's a lot of GSF attached to it. But today I bought some food and went to the park and as I was eating a bird limped over towards me. One of his legs was seriously broken but he wasn't scared of me at all, he was standing so close to me. I was just watching him when all of a sudden I started crying my eyes out. All this sadness came up, my pain and sadness for the birds condition and there was a bit of resistance but I let rip. The whole time this bird didn't move and he watched me with what felt like compassion, it really was a beautiful moment. I cry just thinking about.
It felt like one of those moments the universe reminds you that love is never too far away
My dreams were very emotional last night, but I can only really remember one part. I was screaming hysterically at my family in a house I grew up in. I woke up feeling drained and expected today to be another low day, and it mostly was.
However, I noticed a significant change. I have a hard time crying even if I'm by myself. There's a lot of GSF attached to it. But today I bought some food and went to the park and as I was eating a bird limped over towards me. One of his legs was seriously broken but he wasn't scared of me at all, he was standing so close to me. I was just watching him when all of a sudden I started crying my eyes out. All this sadness came up, my pain and sadness for the birds condition and there was a bit of resistance but I let rip. The whole time this bird didn't move and he watched me with what felt like compassion, it really was a beautiful moment. I cry just thinking about.
It felt like one of those moments the universe reminds you that love is never too far away
