02-06-2016, 04:34 PM
@mat422 Thanks for your insight! I decided to continue running OGSF and in a few days, it'll be one month of listening to the sub. I have to admit, I've had a few days where I just could not listen to it for 8 hours as I felt exhausted and as though I was repelled by it. I decided to do maintenance runs on those days, an hour at the very least.
I did notice a change in my response to a situation which came up a few days ago. My mom had gotten all worked up about something again and then wanted to displace all that anger on me. I just knew - as in knew - that I wasn't responsible for this. Instead of feeling guilt and shame (I did feel fear because she could physically hurt me), I felt anger because I just knew that this wasn't right. That was a significant change for me. I'll probably try running it again for another month (It seems like I'll still need to run MLS for a longer period, anway) and see what happens.
I did notice a change in my response to a situation which came up a few days ago. My mom had gotten all worked up about something again and then wanted to displace all that anger on me. I just knew - as in knew - that I wasn't responsible for this. Instead of feeling guilt and shame (I did feel fear because she could physically hurt me), I felt anger because I just knew that this wasn't right. That was a significant change for me. I'll probably try running it again for another month (It seems like I'll still need to run MLS for a longer period, anway) and see what happens.
