04-07-2016, 02:55 AM
Hello guys,
I'm currently still doing my first sub which is EPHRA for close to 6 months now.
Improvements I made over the last 6 months:
- No more depression periods of several days in a row. (now it's more like a few hours maximum, and also les often. So you could say I'm more positive than before)
- I'm treating my body and mind way better. (I really made some big changes in quiting toxic behavior and adding healthy habbits)
So I've seen a good improvement, however some things that I expected to happen didn't happen, like:
- No emotional dreams (I don't dream as vivid as when I was younger, and also not as often, so I'm not completely sure about this one)
- No memories or things from the past that came up in my conscious mind that I had to deal with, I mean nothing..
So I'm not quite sure how EPHRA is working on me, but I think it stimulated me in making healthy changes in my life.
However, I still have social anxiety, which is my only problem, I no longer feel depressed about it (only sparingly and for a few hours at most), I'm way more motivated, positive and hopefull.
But I do still have:
- Fear of being judged
- Fear of being not good enough
- Fear of being rejected
- Fear of being in center of attention
- Fear of being around dominant people
- Shame issues, blushing about misspelling a word for example.
- Fear of not being liked
I believe I'm genetically disposed to being socially anxious (my mother had/has the same problem in her younger years) and next to that I believe in that I've been conditioned by her in early childhood. Not that I remember anything, but it seems logical that I've copied some of her behavior and self-esteem.
However I never had any anxious feeling in social situations before my 17th and I had a normal level of self esteem and confidence.
My theory is that I triggered this latent social anxiety by drug abuse (weed) and maybe just by growing up and forming an identity after doing crazy shit and not being very self conscious when I was in puberty.
However, what the cause may be, I'm still socially anxious.
Now I don't know if I should choose EPHRA 2.0 or OF 2.0
EPHRA 2.0 has the script of OF 5G in it, so that would tackle my anxiety problems while EPHRA is clearing more stuff from the past.
But maybe OF 2.0 is way more focussed on anxiety problems, and gives me better results in overcoming fear.
I'ts a tricky one, I believe a lot of our beliefs, fears etc stems from childhood. However I don't recall any troubling memories. But still EPHRA 2.0 might be good for this.
On the other side, I've only experienced social anxiety from around age 18 till now.
When I was a child growing up, I didn't experience any social anxiety, so if there's a lot of stuff from childhood causing this social anxiety, why wasn't I socially anxious before age 18?
I hope you guys can help me with making a good choice.
Thanks
I'm currently still doing my first sub which is EPHRA for close to 6 months now.
Improvements I made over the last 6 months:
- No more depression periods of several days in a row. (now it's more like a few hours maximum, and also les often. So you could say I'm more positive than before)
- I'm treating my body and mind way better. (I really made some big changes in quiting toxic behavior and adding healthy habbits)
So I've seen a good improvement, however some things that I expected to happen didn't happen, like:
- No emotional dreams (I don't dream as vivid as when I was younger, and also not as often, so I'm not completely sure about this one)
- No memories or things from the past that came up in my conscious mind that I had to deal with, I mean nothing..
So I'm not quite sure how EPHRA is working on me, but I think it stimulated me in making healthy changes in my life.
However, I still have social anxiety, which is my only problem, I no longer feel depressed about it (only sparingly and for a few hours at most), I'm way more motivated, positive and hopefull.
But I do still have:
- Fear of being judged
- Fear of being not good enough
- Fear of being rejected
- Fear of being in center of attention
- Fear of being around dominant people
- Shame issues, blushing about misspelling a word for example.
- Fear of not being liked
I believe I'm genetically disposed to being socially anxious (my mother had/has the same problem in her younger years) and next to that I believe in that I've been conditioned by her in early childhood. Not that I remember anything, but it seems logical that I've copied some of her behavior and self-esteem.
However I never had any anxious feeling in social situations before my 17th and I had a normal level of self esteem and confidence.
My theory is that I triggered this latent social anxiety by drug abuse (weed) and maybe just by growing up and forming an identity after doing crazy shit and not being very self conscious when I was in puberty.
However, what the cause may be, I'm still socially anxious.
Now I don't know if I should choose EPHRA 2.0 or OF 2.0
EPHRA 2.0 has the script of OF 5G in it, so that would tackle my anxiety problems while EPHRA is clearing more stuff from the past.
But maybe OF 2.0 is way more focussed on anxiety problems, and gives me better results in overcoming fear.
I'ts a tricky one, I believe a lot of our beliefs, fears etc stems from childhood. However I don't recall any troubling memories. But still EPHRA 2.0 might be good for this.
On the other side, I've only experienced social anxiety from around age 18 till now.
When I was a child growing up, I didn't experience any social anxiety, so if there's a lot of stuff from childhood causing this social anxiety, why wasn't I socially anxious before age 18?
I hope you guys can help me with making a good choice.
Thanks