02-05-2016, 03:09 AM
Day 6:
Today was pretty good
I wasn't feeling as much heavy resistance as I was yesterday and I seemed to be more accepting of myself. A big part of my shame revolves around being shy and feeling vulnerable and the fear that others will take advantage of me in that state. Some painters came to quote the room Im renting and I felt quite shy and well... It was ok. I usually shut down/feel worthless when that happens but this time I didn't feel so bad about it.
Another interesting thing is that there were two situations today that I noticed a familiar fear arise, and both of the times it felt like I was being presented choices:
A. Do what I usually do and attempt to avoid it
B. Or just face it and deal with whatever happens
On both occasions I just naturally went with B. It didn't make sense to listen to fear + I felt really good about myself after
Today was pretty good
I wasn't feeling as much heavy resistance as I was yesterday and I seemed to be more accepting of myself. A big part of my shame revolves around being shy and feeling vulnerable and the fear that others will take advantage of me in that state. Some painters came to quote the room Im renting and I felt quite shy and well... It was ok. I usually shut down/feel worthless when that happens but this time I didn't feel so bad about it.Another interesting thing is that there were two situations today that I noticed a familiar fear arise, and both of the times it felt like I was being presented choices:
A. Do what I usually do and attempt to avoid it
B. Or just face it and deal with whatever happens
On both occasions I just naturally went with B. It didn't make sense to listen to fear + I felt really good about myself after
