BASE - Journey Into Cinema

[eternity]

all i know is that i've been battling alcoholism and drug addiction for 10 years, and i finally found something that works. my story is that of living a life constantly teetering on the edge of death, wanting so badly to pull the trigger and die, but unable to. the pain of living is so great that even obliteration by intoxication doesn't seem to work to numb the pain. wanting so badly to put down the drugs and alcohol and praying and crying because i don't want to take the next hit but my body is doing it anyway, leaving me with no choice in the matter. going to jail every year, catching 2 felonies, and 5 misdemeanors isn't "a wake up call" enough to stop. 3 overdoses later, and still can't stop. i've seen the proverbial "light at the end of the tunnel", knowing full well coming back to life was NOT likely, but happened anyway.

Treating my "disease" by going to AA in exchange for a life worth living happy and free is a hell of a deal

but everyone has their own journey and i'm blessed enough to have come to indigo mind labs to supplement my recovery, and enhance my life. maybe i won't need AA soon enough, but right now it's not worth risking it, since my life is quite literally on the line.