02-02-2016, 01:26 AM
day 56 ( 40 remain + whatever is needed )
- flow momentum and no breaks. all that is approached is met with value. if not, discard. the sub burns from the inside. the flow momentum allows me to be on fire all the time, to flow without break, as if you did one approach and set an chain reaction in motion.
- yesterday i had many beliefs going on regarding the sub, how and what it does, only to eventually have it discard and realize asc will dominate that. Replaced. Im going in many different directions. Having many options. Right now, high value sense is here and im utterly capable.
- new girl at work yesterday. I noticed an different way of interaction and handling. I was calm, collected. No thoughts of what to do, my stance was more confident, thumb to crotch, legs spread, taking space like some cowboy, walking away from her. She was attracted like some wasp to honey, all chatting me up, following me, mi-micking. Eye contact are not the only IOI, she threw eyes at me multiple times but other indicators where way more obvious. At this point, I have no interest at all as I type this. My mind projected all kinds of sexual thoughts on her, envisioning her moist, getting physical, like something set in motion.
- reduction in hesitation, my mind is on fire now. I will, I get. no second thoughts currently, only sheer confidence.
- when looking in the mirror, my eyes have an intense quality. I notice little censoring, some humbleness maybe?
- people fall in my activity instead of me involving in theirs.
- I can do anything. nothing hold me back, at all. Its felt in my heart. My whole body is vibrant and slightly shivering.
I was thinking as to how to compare this feeling of radiance and vibrance. Its a bit similar to the technology that tony stark has in its chest ( the guy from iron man )
Inner changes get even more and more big that I lose track just because its so all involving and changing. Yesterday evening I noticed that when I feel nothing, not an calm, but an eerily sort of nothing, it set me into motion with feeling slightly negative and frustrated and from there is escalated. Some sort of energy unable to release and let go. .
Im living more in the now, pushed out of my head, automatic.
Feeling bit sad right now.
- flow momentum and no breaks. all that is approached is met with value. if not, discard. the sub burns from the inside. the flow momentum allows me to be on fire all the time, to flow without break, as if you did one approach and set an chain reaction in motion.
- yesterday i had many beliefs going on regarding the sub, how and what it does, only to eventually have it discard and realize asc will dominate that. Replaced. Im going in many different directions. Having many options. Right now, high value sense is here and im utterly capable.
- new girl at work yesterday. I noticed an different way of interaction and handling. I was calm, collected. No thoughts of what to do, my stance was more confident, thumb to crotch, legs spread, taking space like some cowboy, walking away from her. She was attracted like some wasp to honey, all chatting me up, following me, mi-micking. Eye contact are not the only IOI, she threw eyes at me multiple times but other indicators where way more obvious. At this point, I have no interest at all as I type this. My mind projected all kinds of sexual thoughts on her, envisioning her moist, getting physical, like something set in motion.
- reduction in hesitation, my mind is on fire now. I will, I get. no second thoughts currently, only sheer confidence.
- when looking in the mirror, my eyes have an intense quality. I notice little censoring, some humbleness maybe?
- people fall in my activity instead of me involving in theirs.
- I can do anything. nothing hold me back, at all. Its felt in my heart. My whole body is vibrant and slightly shivering.
I was thinking as to how to compare this feeling of radiance and vibrance. Its a bit similar to the technology that tony stark has in its chest ( the guy from iron man )
Inner changes get even more and more big that I lose track just because its so all involving and changing. Yesterday evening I noticed that when I feel nothing, not an calm, but an eerily sort of nothing, it set me into motion with feeling slightly negative and frustrated and from there is escalated. Some sort of energy unable to release and let go. .
Im living more in the now, pushed out of my head, automatic.
Feeling bit sad right now.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
