You know, I'm sure there a million reasons for why that could be, but in my case how AM feels is just nothing almost. There are some effects but its more like you're just casually walking around, maybe a bit foggy, doing what you do and maybe at some point you'll notice that hey, maybe this room I'm in now is a little different than before... maybe? Like the grey color of the wall is little bit lighter than I remember it, but maybe its the lighting.. On ASC it feels more you're walking along with a good, normal pace, and someone's pushing you forward to walk faster. Well not exactly, but the effect is much, much clearer for me. Maybe I'll be able to benefit more from the multi-stages after some time on ASC. And I'm sure some of that AM/SM/WM programming is coming out now as well. I fucking hope so.
Hardly got any sleep last night. I have a lot of trouble calming down, its like even at home late in the evening I'm just pumped. I don't really get anything productive done, but I'll do body weight exercises and such because I can't quite hold still. Last night I was clearly processing something and thinking of various possibilities that I could do, and of succeeding in things.
Talking loudly and I feel I'm much more expressive even when tired, but I can't force it. Yesterday I noticed it, then tried to more and it sucked. Then relaxed and just naturally went back to that good state.
I'm also clearly taking a more proactive attitude towards things and taking more action. Looking good.
I have gotten very clear female interest: repeated long looks, and 2 or 3 times I've been pretty sure they're making a clear effort to be in my very near vicinity, without making it clear to be. But these are in more relaxed social situations. During the day, mostly I'll just see that other people are not confident-enough for that. Everyone's looking down and not making contact or smiling with anyone. A lot of people just evade any chance of discomfort and get their phones out, disconnecting from the situation entirely and making it look like they're doing something important.
I now its completely ridiculous, but the way to know if I'm in that ASC state is if the Top Gun soundtrack is playing in my head. Ridiculous.
Hardly got any sleep last night. I have a lot of trouble calming down, its like even at home late in the evening I'm just pumped. I don't really get anything productive done, but I'll do body weight exercises and such because I can't quite hold still. Last night I was clearly processing something and thinking of various possibilities that I could do, and of succeeding in things.
Talking loudly and I feel I'm much more expressive even when tired, but I can't force it. Yesterday I noticed it, then tried to more and it sucked. Then relaxed and just naturally went back to that good state.
I'm also clearly taking a more proactive attitude towards things and taking more action. Looking good.
I have gotten very clear female interest: repeated long looks, and 2 or 3 times I've been pretty sure they're making a clear effort to be in my very near vicinity, without making it clear to be. But these are in more relaxed social situations. During the day, mostly I'll just see that other people are not confident-enough for that. Everyone's looking down and not making contact or smiling with anyone. A lot of people just evade any chance of discomfort and get their phones out, disconnecting from the situation entirely and making it look like they're doing something important.
I now its completely ridiculous, but the way to know if I'm in that ASC state is if the Top Gun soundtrack is playing in my head. Ridiculous.
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
