WildFlower's 2011 Alpha Male Journal

[WildFlower]

Stage 3 hasn't been as smooth so far as the past 2 stages. Had a few moments of dissatisfaction; not with myself, other people, circumstances, etc, just a general, directionless dissatisfaction. This aimless dissatisfaction seems to have inadvertently forced me to focus on specific areas I haven't been satisfied with and motivated me into doing something about it.

Other than these brief periods of broodiness, things are good. My face has taken on a very definite expression; not serious, definitely not open, but rather very deep and penetrating. I was shocked looking in the mirror, I really penetrated into myself in a very deep way I wasn't expecting. It's as if I saw into the depths of my soul for a brief second. It was actually quite intense. Virility and penetrating alertness; that's how I'd describe how my body language is right now. I'm not as happy go lucky as I was this time week, but I do feel things are progressing, even with these 'atmospheres' of dissatisfaction which engulf me for a few hours at a time.

You happiness is contagious despite the let down.

I'm not following, sorry?

Went out last night and got bombarded by female attention .