When meeting with some friends I becoame agitated. It felt fruitless. There was no purpose and it seems we are worlds apart. ASC changes my attitude, reactionairy patterns, slight characteristics like fine tuning. It makes me more real instead of wearing an false mask. Its breaking through. Im not yet fully accepting it seems, resulting in agitation, resistance and frustration. When meeting up I felt some old patterns coming back and know its an matter of time. Lots of thoughts of "why cant I let go of this, this shouldnt matter, so what I offend? value/status? why am i so sucked up in this all?"
It doesnt matter. At the end of the night some stuff was processed as I felt more disconnected from their influences and more centred and less being sucked in, more alpha afterwards. ASC replaced aswell some beliefs towards eye contact and installs supporting beliefs around it.
Im seeing more and more needy behaviour in some friend of mine and validation seeking which is currently now dealt with in myself. I ticks me to be honest. No matter if im caught up in stuff, people still treat me like the alpha of the group.
ASC digs even deeper and to think big seems to solve some resistance and gives space for acceptance.
My eye contact was rock solid in contrast to the 2 former days or so. It clearly made them unsettled a bit. the believes surrounding it where absent aswell. It was overwritten, like an "getting on with it" attitude towards it.
I can shift from buisness-mode to fun-mode at will throught thinking about sex for example.
Im still thinking AM 6.0 will benefit me greatly but am coming at peace with ASC right now. Its investment. All is.
day 41
Changes are happening inside. I feel close to an breakthrough or/and ASC holding more ground and dealing withn stuff. Im getting more aware how everything is dealt with. it seems to deal with guilt aswell.
Ultrasonic is playing currently.
EDIT: I think im dealing with one-itis aswell. Its bloody sucks lol. I dont get why tho. Its like a splinter in my mind, yet feel by writing this im letting go. Its pretty undermining lots of stuff. O the paradox of giving attention.
It doesnt matter. At the end of the night some stuff was processed as I felt more disconnected from their influences and more centred and less being sucked in, more alpha afterwards. ASC replaced aswell some beliefs towards eye contact and installs supporting beliefs around it.
Im seeing more and more needy behaviour in some friend of mine and validation seeking which is currently now dealt with in myself. I ticks me to be honest. No matter if im caught up in stuff, people still treat me like the alpha of the group.
ASC digs even deeper and to think big seems to solve some resistance and gives space for acceptance.
My eye contact was rock solid in contrast to the 2 former days or so. It clearly made them unsettled a bit. the believes surrounding it where absent aswell. It was overwritten, like an "getting on with it" attitude towards it.
I can shift from buisness-mode to fun-mode at will throught thinking about sex for example.
Im still thinking AM 6.0 will benefit me greatly but am coming at peace with ASC right now. Its investment. All is.
day 41
Changes are happening inside. I feel close to an breakthrough or/and ASC holding more ground and dealing withn stuff. Im getting more aware how everything is dealt with. it seems to deal with guilt aswell.
Ultrasonic is playing currently.
EDIT: I think im dealing with one-itis aswell. Its bloody sucks lol. I dont get why tho. Its like a splinter in my mind, yet feel by writing this im letting go. Its pretty undermining lots of stuff. O the paradox of giving attention.
