Shannon's Journal

[WildFlower]

I am really liking where the 2011 alpha set is taking me. I am happier, I am stronger, I am more social and more comfortable in social situations. There is a sense of inner strength that seems to have "become" my inner core, and it "just is". It's so deep that it literally IS me. It's like this began as a singularity within the same space I occupied, and as it grew, it grew intertwined with my essence. I feel it growing stronger day by day, and it is making me feel really good... confident... healthier, more social more assertive, and more "go get it" when I want something.

I have also begun attracting the attention and interest of women, as well. This is much more obvious an attraction from women than I got with any of the previous alpha male sets. I am just happy being by myself, and enjoying their company, and if they aren't around, no big deal. I'm having fun with my newfound desire to be alive and social, and at least one of them is giving more and more signs of becoming seriously interested. I'm not trying to attract her or anyone else right now, though, because I am still healing. Everything I do to back off and keep things chill and fun seems to be more and more attracting her... I guess I'll have to bring this up soon. But it's amazing how just having fun and doing my own thing can be so attractive to women.

I can't wait for what happens by the end of this set, with the manifestations I put in.

In short, it's making me feel awesome. I am free of neediness and the need for validation and such from others. Whatever codependency I had left after my last relationship ended is dead and gone. I am, for the first time in my life, single and enjoying it. I feel as if it's just naturally time to get out and socialize, and I feel that it is okay and possible to naturally do so even with strangers. My dreams are reflecting this, as they have me going out and meeting people and having a wonderful time just having fun and talking. Sometimes, I go dancing in my dreams. Unfortunately, in real life, when it comes to dancing, I am as Weird Al would put it, "whiter than sour cream". lol

So I have gotten it in my head lately that I am going to start being more active. I am going to start kayaking more, and get myself a bicycle. Kayaking for upper body exercise, and biking for lower body. I also have been wanting to take dancing lessons, fencing lessons and yoga. Maybe Tai Chi, too.

I am really loving what AM2011 is doing with me. I think I am coming out of this period of mourning healthier and stronger than ever, and it feels like I am not just blooming as a new person, but that I am going to come out of this dark tunnel like a shot!

It's great to read that your making these strides after the year you had in 2010.

I have to say I'm getting very similar results to yourself. The difference between the previous Alpha set's (2009) and the current set is definitely - as Rainbow put's it - the 'zeal'. I just feel more vibrant and energetic on the set. Driven! I, too, am getting more attention from Women. More attention than on 09 Alpha and even Women Magnet. I don't know what's causing this, perhaps the zeal, perhaps how everything is so naturally, suave. I don't know but I'm liking it.

You should definitely look into Yoga. You mentioned a few months ago about your lungs, and there are several really unstrenuous postures in yoga that really improve lung strength and capacity. If you can find a studio near you with a good teacher they should be able to help and direct you in this area. Another benefit to Yoga is getting to meet more like-minded people; people at the classes come from all walks of life, and they each want something different from their practice, but sure enough there's always a few doing it for the same reason you are and tend to be on the same wavelength. I'd like to try Tai Chi, or qi gong but my schedule is full.

Ah, Kayaking! That is something I really need to get into.