12-18-2015, 12:03 AM
(10-05-2013, 01:55 AM)Roy Wrote: Stage 1 day 7
I started using Sex Magnet 3.0 seven days ago.The decision was between this and BAMM that I want so much to start already.I finished AM 5.0
about 4 months ago and waited for SM or AYPL to come out before starting BAMM.I ran OF for 90 and it was awesome.
The resistance to it came in the form of intense physical fear I felt in my body like wearing an armor of fear,and eventually it left.I can do so many things I couldn't do before.And I keep wondering why I didn't do them previously as they were so easy to do.
There were the fears that after I pushed through were gone which is great.I ran US for 21 days which was brilliant as usual.Than a refresher of AM 5.0 for 45 days and than I got SM 3.0.
So my financial situation is that I still haven't found a decent job.Sending my resume again and again and getting to sporadic job interview in jobs relating to my degree.I get there get all or most of the answers correct,very little nervousness to no whatsoever.And I don't get the job.
I'm working on improving my financial situation,learning,reading,improving various skills and increasing my passive income.During OF I realized I saw a unique opportunity that previously I would think is nuts but I analyzed it and got all in.My gut said the same so I did it.
I figure it will be probably be easier to become a multimillionaire than to get one of those jobs as an engineer.
So why SM 3.0 and not BAMM?I'm a virgin.I know that I will be probably to busy or care less about women and be more focused on other things.
I intend to take care of this and than start BAMM after I finish SM 3.0.
What actually gave me the final push to start SM 3.0 this Sunday is me getting seriously dumped by a woman I really liked.Pretty,sexy,smart funny and I like her personality.I knew her before,during US I danced with her than she started kissing me.
I kissed back.She got into a small motorcycle accident and I visited her few times.Since she was bit injured and at her mother's house nothing happened.I invited her when she got better to come over so I'll cook.
She dumped me hard on Sunday.I started SM 3.0.This Friday I meet her,talk a bit,she commented that I'm different and asked if I got a rebound.We made out a lot.It was a lot more sexual than other times.
Somehow I get myself into her house,kiss her,take of her shirt,seemed very natural to do it.Had a problem with the bra.So I leave it alone.She eventually took it off.She went to the shower,took it off,I took a shower after her.We got into the bed.I took of her shirt.Made out,felt her,took of her underwear off.
It was really awesome.Than the problems started.She still had a bit of an injury in her leg which made things bit harder.Than she suggested before I did to put a condom on.I had them ready.
I'm not that good at putting those d**m things in the dark yet.I excused myself to the bathroom where I can light the light and put it on.I put in on go back.I seems I did something wrong or lost her in the time it took me and she was closed.I persisted but it didn't work.
Finding the hole was also an issue.I need advise about it.It was dark.
I probably lost her.But it's better to learn those lessons sooner than later.
It's the going from to the physical and emotional intimacy to her shutting
down that hurts.It wasn't for long.I seem very unphased about it now
and detached.
I seem to get more responses from women and more beautiful women seem to show in my realty.More sex drive,I'm hornier.I also noticed that I'm doing things differently,better than I thought I could or did previously like some other version of myself is doing them.
I had some anxiety and fear coming in moment of depression when they come and feel them intensely in my body and I just want to curl and cry.Maybe due to OFGS.
I needed more sleep during the first six days.Had some serious tiredness.It's getting better.
Edit:Forgot to add there's a really strong out of phase with reality feeling.
Roy my man,
I'm loving this story; so you got the girl after just ultra success?
Wow just wow. looking forward to seeing how it ends up with the same girl you been trying to tap after SM!
But I think I might go with BASE after AM and then after BASE go with AYP; sadly gonna miss out on SM
