mat422 alpha journal

[mat422]

I've just been chilling out over these past few days because it's my spring break. Skateboarding, hanging out with friends, just taking some of the stress away from college. Anyway I was just relaxing on my front porch one day and I just had a weird feeling. The world is huge and just thinking about that makes me realize most people think of their country as their reality, when we are actually all on the same planet. We as humans are all fundamentally the same, but we are very isolated from each other.

I've always been really insightful, connected, spiritual, whatever you want to call it. I don't know if stage 3 is affecting me in some way, but lately I've had more of a sense of not belonging. It's strange because the other day I just thought of that in my head. I was sitting down and I just felt out of place. It's just a feeling you have to experience to understand. Anybody else ever feel this way? I guess it could be depression, and I'm just giving special meaning to it to make myself feel better. Maybe it's just when I look up at the sky and think about Earth collectively, I'm upset about some humans that take that for granted and pollute, litter, and disrespect our home we live on. Or others that disrespect people.

I guess I'm just overwhelmed sometimes. I get caught up in all the negative instead of seeing the positive.