12-03-2015, 01:34 PM
Thank you, Adri, you unwittingly (or maybe fully intentionally) gave me a new angle on how to approach this. 
Anyway... last few days were close to a complete disaster. Almost zero productivity, total lack of motivation... and to top it off, I am constantly tired. I was at a networking event just now and at 9pm I was already tired, unfocused and without any desire to socialize. I've only had one small (330ml) beer, so it's definitely not the alcohol to blame. It is simply ridiculous, I have no other way of putting it. Now it's 11pm and I'm half-asleep in front of my computer, writing this.
I have 1-2 more days of stage 6 of BASE... and then for some much, MUCH needed rest. The wrap up for this second run is this:
- Income wise I'm on the same level, although I expect one project to start giving fruit in the coming weeks. That's the least impressive aspect of these last six months.
- I am doing things, that I enjoy much more.
- I am helping people first, earning money second.
- Emotionally and mentally I feel much more mature. (although in this particular moment I feel like a whiny idiot )
- For the first time, I have a long term plan on how I want my life to play out, at least professionally. This is coupled with a very conservative vision of how I can contribute to society and mankind, which I hope is only going to become more ambitious as time goes on.
- Intimate relationships, on the other hand, continue to baffle me immensely and I seem to be stuck in a cycle of emotional extremes. Feelings of intimacy, followed by disappointment or rejection... followed by even deeper appreciation for the feminine... followed by a conclusion that maybe celibacy doesn't sound too bad. BASE is not the tool for this job, I know.
- Socially, I'm somewhat better off. Meeting lots of new people, who are ambitious and positive. That's not creating any opportunities for me though, since my work is completely based online and in the vast majority of cases - theirs isn't.
So, this is it. Given my current state, I'm very surprised I managed to write so much words, and a lot of it sounds positive. I may have something to add tomorrow. Hopefully it will be a better day.
Anyway... last few days were close to a complete disaster. Almost zero productivity, total lack of motivation... and to top it off, I am constantly tired. I was at a networking event just now and at 9pm I was already tired, unfocused and without any desire to socialize. I've only had one small (330ml) beer, so it's definitely not the alcohol to blame. It is simply ridiculous, I have no other way of putting it. Now it's 11pm and I'm half-asleep in front of my computer, writing this.
I have 1-2 more days of stage 6 of BASE... and then for some much, MUCH needed rest. The wrap up for this second run is this:
- Income wise I'm on the same level, although I expect one project to start giving fruit in the coming weeks. That's the least impressive aspect of these last six months.
- I am doing things, that I enjoy much more.
- I am helping people first, earning money second.
- Emotionally and mentally I feel much more mature. (although in this particular moment I feel like a whiny idiot
)- For the first time, I have a long term plan on how I want my life to play out, at least professionally. This is coupled with a very conservative vision of how I can contribute to society and mankind, which I hope is only going to become more ambitious as time goes on.
- Intimate relationships, on the other hand, continue to baffle me immensely and I seem to be stuck in a cycle of emotional extremes. Feelings of intimacy, followed by disappointment or rejection... followed by even deeper appreciation for the feminine... followed by a conclusion that maybe celibacy doesn't sound too bad. BASE is not the tool for this job, I know.
- Socially, I'm somewhat better off. Meeting lots of new people, who are ambitious and positive. That's not creating any opportunities for me though, since my work is completely based online and in the vast majority of cases - theirs isn't.
So, this is it. Given my current state, I'm very surprised I managed to write so much words, and a lot of it sounds positive. I may have something to add tomorrow. Hopefully it will be a better day.
