Day 69 
Days completed total = 50
Days missed total = 19
Stage 1 complete
Stage 2 started: 22nd November
Stage 2 Days = 9
Days missed = 0
On the last day of stage one I had a very vivid dream, one which did not fit into my normal repetition of standard dreams that i can remember. It was one of those dreams that you cant stop thinking about the next day, and every time you do you get the same deep feeling - good feeling in a way.
The dream in the very simplest of terms: we were samurai, 2 men, a woman and myself - all looked Japanese and were dressed in Japanese style robes - all very hazey and not clear. The 2 men felt like relatives, maybe farther and brother, the brother was not really in the picture. The woman was important to me but did not feel like a relative, maybe a girlfriend.
I had a Samurai sword and it was my job to kill the woman, but it didn't feel like a harsh thing, it as if this is what needed to be done. She was ready for death and excepted her situation.
She was on her hands and knees waiting for me to executer her - but again it didn't feel that bad, like not a real execution. The 2 men watched and waiting as I prepared to finish her. I slashed the sword across her face down and across, with each stroke her face blurred, this was not gory in any way, her face just become more blurred.
The job was done and the the 1 man to my right, which felt like my father gave the slightest nod of approval. Following this i went to another room and looked inside a box which belonged to the woman (my girlfriend perhaps), in it a found a large disc shaped token with a dragon on it, the picture represented the woman and upon seeing it I instantly began to cry HEAVILY, like more than I have in a long time and it felt very real!! I then cried a second time. All due to the sadness of the woman no longer being present. Dream over.
When I woke up the first thing I thought was I hope i cried for real, but then realised it was a dream and I hadn't in fact cried in reality - you know that feeling when you first wake up and think it was real.
I have waited until now to post about this as it felt good in a way and I didn't want to ruin the mystery around the dream.
I'm not looking for any kind of comments or meaning about the dream, but if you do want to comment on what you think it all means then please PM me, don't post 'em here.
Thought his was a rather fitting end to my first stage of EPRHA.
Days completed total = 50
Days missed total = 19
Stage 1 complete
Stage 2 started: 22nd November
Stage 2 Days = 9
Days missed = 0
On the last day of stage one I had a very vivid dream, one which did not fit into my normal repetition of standard dreams that i can remember. It was one of those dreams that you cant stop thinking about the next day, and every time you do you get the same deep feeling - good feeling in a way.
The dream in the very simplest of terms: we were samurai, 2 men, a woman and myself - all looked Japanese and were dressed in Japanese style robes - all very hazey and not clear. The 2 men felt like relatives, maybe farther and brother, the brother was not really in the picture. The woman was important to me but did not feel like a relative, maybe a girlfriend.
I had a Samurai sword and it was my job to kill the woman, but it didn't feel like a harsh thing, it as if this is what needed to be done. She was ready for death and excepted her situation.
She was on her hands and knees waiting for me to executer her - but again it didn't feel that bad, like not a real execution. The 2 men watched and waiting as I prepared to finish her. I slashed the sword across her face down and across, with each stroke her face blurred, this was not gory in any way, her face just become more blurred.
The job was done and the the 1 man to my right, which felt like my father gave the slightest nod of approval. Following this i went to another room and looked inside a box which belonged to the woman (my girlfriend perhaps), in it a found a large disc shaped token with a dragon on it, the picture represented the woman and upon seeing it I instantly began to cry HEAVILY, like more than I have in a long time and it felt very real!! I then cried a second time. All due to the sadness of the woman no longer being present. Dream over.
When I woke up the first thing I thought was I hope i cried for real, but then realised it was a dream and I hadn't in fact cried in reality - you know that feeling when you first wake up and think it was real.
I have waited until now to post about this as it felt good in a way and I didn't want to ruin the mystery around the dream.
I'm not looking for any kind of comments or meaning about the dream, but if you do want to comment on what you think it all means then please PM me, don't post 'em here.
Thought his was a rather fitting end to my first stage of EPRHA.
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My EHPRA Journal - http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-5779.html
My Intro and Ramblings - http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-5785.html
