11-12-2015, 07:08 PM
(11-12-2015, 08:05 AM)ArcticFox Wrote: Day 51
Days completed = 34
Days missed = 17
Neutral changes to report. Don't wake up with butterflies in belly when thinking about my lack of assets in real world, no house, wife, kids, etc - less regret. This has now changed into a why bother, too late, what's the point attitude - but its not painful.
I think this may be due to sub fatigue but i really have let myself go since doing the subs, don't run or train much any more, not studying or bettering myself, going out less, and indulging in destructive vices more, and more time on my own as well.
I'm still optimistic about the subs work, I just havn't noticed it yet, too soon. Also the fact I havn't completed 1 run yet.
Seeds of doubt are starting to crop up, surely all the exposure to subs should pick you up a bit, even in the very slightest short term? To be fair I've been more depressed than I've ever been.
Just stick with it man! I had the same level of depression you are talking about here. I even had thoughts about how the world is so f***** and how nothing matters.
By the end I felt like "The world may be going downhill, but I'm gonna enjoy it while I still can" in a calm controlled sort of way.
