Arctic Fox's EPRHA V2 Journal

[ArcticFox]

Day 36
Days completed = 20
Days missed = 16

I have been back on tinder and think its important to note that I dont think I am worthy of a lot of the girls on there, because I dont have certain material things: house, car, etc.

You are worthy of everything.. my brother.

I have been back on tinder and think its important to note that I dont think I am worthy of a lot of the girls on there, because I dont have certain material things: house, car, etc.

It can get frustrating with Modern Day Women in General; That the Majority of Women look at 'material things' of Men... Perhaps, the Majority of Women sum up Especially, the Men's 'Ambition' Based on his assets, material things.

Thanks for the support brothers!

I guess its society that deems what people should have in terms of assets, by certain ages. **** society man! A pattern has emerged this week that typically by mid week I have a couple of 'angry day's' then by Friday I have a really good day, and feel positive. This could be due to the fact i have missed nearly every weekend of subs listening due to partying and travelling. I really want to get some long consecutive runs in, even 10+ days would be good!

Thinking of old negative loops:

• Angry at people
  
• regret I missed chance to buy a house
  
• short tempered at work
  
• havnt got time for people, their idiots
  
• pedantic to people on the phone
  
• Spiteful - still want to un-match girls on tinder because they havnt message me back.
  
• Still havnt stepped out of my comfort bubble, need to go meet new people / go on dates - but to stuck in my bubble.
  

just some of the positives (hard to list as underlying work is difficult to spot but I know its helping):

• much more productive and 'on it'
  
• slowly getting round to some chores and jobs I've put off for a while.
  
• being a bit bolder and upfront at work
  
• holding eye contact with people i walk past (girls) without feeling weird, normally i look down/away quickly
  

Note: My dreams are always different and new, I used to have very repetitive dreams