10-20-2015, 08:35 PM
==23 days done, month 3==
23 days done in the third month.
I felt sick nearly all week last week and this time it will be very difficult to convince me it's because of anything other than the medication. It was very difficult to be motivated and productive, and many things seem to have suffered as a result. While I would definitely be justified in attributing that lack of motivation to the existing depression, so far I feel the medication has exacerbated that lack for some reason.
Nothing much else different to report. Summer 2016 is looking to bring some employment via a paid internship, but I need something usable soon if I'm going to survive the winter. Min wage is not an option as that has never worked out for me and I've almost always fared better by not having a job instead of having a min wage one. We'll see what happens.
I'm not sure how I feel right now; there's still a lot of conflict internally and I'm not yet sure what to make of it. I keep getting real numbers but no solid meets (just got one earlier tonight, and she said it was her birthday but already had plans all week and might have some time next week), and people still keep telling me the way I behave is wrong. There's no pleasing people sometimes.
23 days done in the third month.
I felt sick nearly all week last week and this time it will be very difficult to convince me it's because of anything other than the medication. It was very difficult to be motivated and productive, and many things seem to have suffered as a result. While I would definitely be justified in attributing that lack of motivation to the existing depression, so far I feel the medication has exacerbated that lack for some reason.
Nothing much else different to report. Summer 2016 is looking to bring some employment via a paid internship, but I need something usable soon if I'm going to survive the winter. Min wage is not an option as that has never worked out for me and I've almost always fared better by not having a job instead of having a min wage one. We'll see what happens.
I'm not sure how I feel right now; there's still a lot of conflict internally and I'm not yet sure what to make of it. I keep getting real numbers but no solid meets (just got one earlier tonight, and she said it was her birthday but already had plans all week and might have some time next week), and people still keep telling me the way I behave is wrong. There's no pleasing people sometimes.
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