02-28-2011, 02:07 PM
I'm missing my hair already lol. But it will grow back so no worries. It's always good to experiment. Maybe I just need to find a happy medium between the two, not too long and not too short. That's the whole thing about life, it's just one big learning experience. And if there is one thing I'm learning from alpha it's just learning to be my own man and doing what I want to do regardless of others opinions.
So I'm almost over my cold, still a little tired and drained, but I managed to get some work done over the weekend. The weather is supposed to be getting nicer here so I'm looking forward to some skateboarding.
One more thing is I've picked up natural grounding again. I'm trying to get in touch with my more emotional and intuitive side. I feel like a lot of my problems with girls stems from repressing my natural feelings and thinking I'm somehow giving my power away by being attracted to them. That's one thing PUA will do to you, make you neurotic about the most simple basic human interactions and turn it into some kind of game. I remember when I used to do natural grounding talking to girls was actually fun and I felt connections that were very powerful. Somewhere along the road I feel like I lost what was important and things turned into a game of how much I could get girls attracted to me instead of enjoying the interactions with them.
I'm trying to see things more like a child. Just really experiencing things and enjoying them instead of trying to understand. I think kids have the most freedom, they see the world for what it is. They don't think about time, they only live in the here and now. I remember as a kid playing outside until dinner was ready, I didn't keep track of time I just tried to enjoy myself as much as possible. Now it seems I always have a watchful eye on the clock, calculating my day instead of living it. Always thinking towards the future too much instead of just relaxing and seeing where life takes me. Growing up seems to be confused with stress, making something of your life, thinking too much, etc. While there is a transition into adulthood I think maybe some people lose that connection with their inner child and life becomes a process more than an experience. Growing up you gain responsibilities, but I feel like in the United States there is a lot of pressure on people to "be something". What's wrong with just being and enjoying life?
I guess going into alpha male I had some preconceived notion of what an alpha male was. I think I'm better off just forgetting about that and just being who I am. Along the way on my journey I feel like I'm connecting more to my inner self, rather than trying to become something else.
So I'm almost over my cold, still a little tired and drained, but I managed to get some work done over the weekend. The weather is supposed to be getting nicer here so I'm looking forward to some skateboarding.
One more thing is I've picked up natural grounding again. I'm trying to get in touch with my more emotional and intuitive side. I feel like a lot of my problems with girls stems from repressing my natural feelings and thinking I'm somehow giving my power away by being attracted to them. That's one thing PUA will do to you, make you neurotic about the most simple basic human interactions and turn it into some kind of game. I remember when I used to do natural grounding talking to girls was actually fun and I felt connections that were very powerful. Somewhere along the road I feel like I lost what was important and things turned into a game of how much I could get girls attracted to me instead of enjoying the interactions with them.
I'm trying to see things more like a child. Just really experiencing things and enjoying them instead of trying to understand. I think kids have the most freedom, they see the world for what it is. They don't think about time, they only live in the here and now. I remember as a kid playing outside until dinner was ready, I didn't keep track of time I just tried to enjoy myself as much as possible. Now it seems I always have a watchful eye on the clock, calculating my day instead of living it. Always thinking towards the future too much instead of just relaxing and seeing where life takes me. Growing up seems to be confused with stress, making something of your life, thinking too much, etc. While there is a transition into adulthood I think maybe some people lose that connection with their inner child and life becomes a process more than an experience. Growing up you gain responsibilities, but I feel like in the United States there is a lot of pressure on people to "be something". What's wrong with just being and enjoying life?
I guess going into alpha male I had some preconceived notion of what an alpha male was. I think I'm better off just forgetting about that and just being who I am. Along the way on my journey I feel like I'm connecting more to my inner self, rather than trying to become something else.
