10-15-2015, 08:46 PM
Hey Guys,
Stage 4 is done. Here's what I've noticed in the second half.
A couple of unusual things happened with some kids and they were all girls for some reason... One was eyeing me in a really focused way that I started feeling uncomfortable. Another started talking to me and could not shut up. A third ran towards me, and a fourth waived at me... I mean these could be things that kids usually do, but it's very unusual to me, and they happened all in a span of a few days for me to think that it was coincidence.
I started to develop an urge to start going out again. Unfortunately my friends are not into that type of things. So, for the first time ever, I went out on my own. Anxiety was bad at the beginning, but it eventually faded away. Had a couple of beers and came back home. I plan on continuing to do this, until I start getting comfortable with the idea and the venues, in order to minimize the anxiety as much as possible. Two days after that, it was the Canadian Thanksgiving, and out of nowhere a couple of friends suggested to go out for a change. We had a really good time and I approached a couple of girls
I was way too drunk to remember a lot unfortunately, and all I remember is that the first one was very difficult (I haven't done this in ages), but I picked up momentum pretty much after that and approached a couple of others. Too bad nothing came out of it, but I was having fun while at it, and the next day I woke up very satisfied 
My handshake feels really strong! I'm not consciously paying attention to it. It's just happening.
I started feeling more generous. I think I've helped more homeless people in the last couple of weeks than the rest of my whole life.
Time spent with friends feels much better than before. Same with music. Some sound way better than before. I probably felt the craziest chills while listening to a few.
I'm finding myself more attractive both in the mirror and in pictures.
Still going strong with no porn and masturbation. It's been 50 days so far and it's going really smoothly to the point where I do not get what these /r/NoFap guys are talking about. I used to watch porn everyday, sometimes even twice a day. I cut it cold turkey and never looked back. It's true that I get real urges, but I think the subs are making my determination and discipline stronger.
My lifts are getting stronger at the gym, although I've been slightly losing weight recently. I'm gonna associate this to NoFap.
On the negative, I'm still having doubts in the subs. It's either the naturalizer doing its thing the way it's supposed to, or I'll need another run after this. Too early to decide on that for now though. Also, I keep looking for results. I have to change this mentality and forget about the subs running in the background, but that's easier said than done, at least for me.
Overall time in Stage 4 was 500 hours, 165 masked and 335 silent. That's more than 15 hours a day on average
Stage 4 is done. Here's what I've noticed in the second half.
A couple of unusual things happened with some kids and they were all girls for some reason... One was eyeing me in a really focused way that I started feeling uncomfortable. Another started talking to me and could not shut up. A third ran towards me, and a fourth waived at me... I mean these could be things that kids usually do, but it's very unusual to me, and they happened all in a span of a few days for me to think that it was coincidence.
I started to develop an urge to start going out again. Unfortunately my friends are not into that type of things. So, for the first time ever, I went out on my own. Anxiety was bad at the beginning, but it eventually faded away. Had a couple of beers and came back home. I plan on continuing to do this, until I start getting comfortable with the idea and the venues, in order to minimize the anxiety as much as possible. Two days after that, it was the Canadian Thanksgiving, and out of nowhere a couple of friends suggested to go out for a change. We had a really good time and I approached a couple of girls
I was way too drunk to remember a lot unfortunately, and all I remember is that the first one was very difficult (I haven't done this in ages), but I picked up momentum pretty much after that and approached a couple of others. Too bad nothing came out of it, but I was having fun while at it, and the next day I woke up very satisfied My handshake feels really strong! I'm not consciously paying attention to it. It's just happening.
I started feeling more generous. I think I've helped more homeless people in the last couple of weeks than the rest of my whole life.
Time spent with friends feels much better than before. Same with music. Some sound way better than before. I probably felt the craziest chills while listening to a few.
I'm finding myself more attractive both in the mirror and in pictures.
Still going strong with no porn and masturbation. It's been 50 days so far and it's going really smoothly to the point where I do not get what these /r/NoFap guys are talking about. I used to watch porn everyday, sometimes even twice a day. I cut it cold turkey and never looked back. It's true that I get real urges, but I think the subs are making my determination and discipline stronger.
My lifts are getting stronger at the gym, although I've been slightly losing weight recently. I'm gonna associate this to NoFap.
On the negative, I'm still having doubts in the subs. It's either the naturalizer doing its thing the way it's supposed to, or I'll need another run after this. Too early to decide on that for now though. Also, I keep looking for results. I have to change this mentality and forget about the subs running in the background, but that's easier said than done, at least for me.
Overall time in Stage 4 was 500 hours, 165 masked and 335 silent. That's more than 15 hours a day on average
INFJ
