WildFlower's 2011 Alpha Male Journal

[WildFlower]

Wildflower, I really enjoy reading your posts! You have a great writing abililty that is very impressive. And yes, I'm one of those people that should get my butt over to the blood donation facility....it truly is one of the easiest ways we can give back! Thanks for the reminder.

Thanks, Patti! That's a massive compliment thanks a lot. I enjoy reading your post's as well; it's nice to have someone else on the forum who isn't a male using the Alpha set lol. The different perspective really helps.

I planned to do the blood thing about 3-4 months ago, I missed my appointment and have not been since. I keep getting reminders every single day, big exaggeration, but its making me not want to do it more, when people keep hounding me for my blood like vampires!!! lol.

I will one day though.

I wonder if the needle is as big as the one where they take your blood to test it.

It wasn't pleasant for me. And I'm pretty indifferent to needles.

Giving blood is one of those things that I would probably have thought, "yeah, it's a really great idea and people really need it" but then I'd never actually get round to going and doing it. Like countless other things. I'm pretty sure I had the idea, seized the opportunity, and went ahead and did it because of something in the Alpha set. Face the fear and do it anyway. And do it now. That's my mindset these days.

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Today is day 4 of Stage 2. I think it was either day 1 or day 2 where my vibe was a little out of sync, but other than that one day things have been progressing on smoothly from stage 1. I feel even more comfortable in situations now than ever before.

I'm a laidback guy, that's just my nature. I have a rich inner life to the extent that I'm pretty detached and nonreactive to external events. Perhaps as a result of this, four different people, in four different situations, in four different days have commented on how relaxed, chilled and laidback I am. This is, off course, true - and would've been true 5 years ago, 10 years ago, 15 years ago - but I thought it was a little strange how I got this compliment 4 times in as many days. I guess the James Bond vibe is inevitable. I can be the energetic guy from time to time when I want, but even then there's something about my demeanor that's relaxed. It's who I am and I like it. Laidback isn't everyone's cup of tea but it works for me. Alpha Male is definitely strengthening and accentuating this trait; I feel all deep and mysterious, I feel strong, calm and in control.

Recently I have been getting headaches (dull pressure in the head from time to time) and feeling tired. I don't think it's from playing the subs to loud, although as an experiment I've turned the volume down a bit. It's now pretty quiet - loud enough to hear, for sure, but definitely more on the quiet side. I've been waking up sporadically in the night, once or twice each night, and I think this is what is causing the headaches and tiredness. I don't know if the subs are stimulating my mind too much and bringing me back to consciousness or something. Once awoke I can easily drift back to sleep, but I'm hoping dropping the volume a bit will help me sleep all the way through. I've stopped drinking caffeine so it could be that, and not the subs at all, that is causing the headaches. Anyway, onwards and upwards.