A Better Alex, stage 2: ASC Journal

[apollolux]

Flow of thought:

Hm. The more I read sites like The Rational Male and Girls Chase the more frustrated I become and disappointed in myself that I wasn't able to convert my one-itis to a sexual and romantic partner. The more I read them, the more convinced I am that all her signals pointed to being interested in me but she resisted or outright refused my advances, and the more angry I get at myself for either not "advancing properly" or not handling the resistance "properly."

If it was simply a matter of technique I could improve myself through reading and hopefully practice, but it seems to be much deeper than that, likely at the attitude/vibe level, and makes it even more apparent to me that I need to internalize being alpha and being a sex magnet, or at the very least being irresistibly attractive sexually if not an outright magnet. ASC seems to be doing an ok job at reducing my concern for how others react to me, but it's not yet reached the point of complete, "unshakeable" confidence as advertised.

I need to plan how to proceed from this point. I wish while I wait to properly afford AM6 I could do EPRHA longer without feeling like all my productivity will be lost due to my attention being solely on handling the emotional stuff it brings up. Hm.