02-18-2011, 11:45 PM
(02-17-2011, 10:50 AM)spiralout1988 Wrote: I'm with you 100% on the chapstick, Jackie. and congrats on the new job! What's the work like?
Haha! I love it. I actually went 9 hours with out my chapstick today, and I'm proud of myself for not licking a big 'ol red ring on my upper lip. Yup, def an addict, but at least I can laugh at myself for it.
I'm so impressed with this sub. I've been only listening to it since Sunday, averaging about 8-10 hrs of listening a day, but there has defintitely been a shift already.
The last few weeks I've been feeling kind of emotionally fragile for a number of reasons, although since the sub I've noticed I've been separating myself more from those issues causing me distress. Almost like I'm putting a shield up to protect myself with out shutting down. I've been really happy with this because my normal tendency is to over analyse, internalize, and then go numb and get depressed. This time, it's almost like I'm immune to these circumstances in my life right now. I don't know how else to explain it, other than that I feel stronger and not doooming myself to failure. It's like I'm not letting fear take over, but keeping it at bay and telling it to go jump off a cliff.
In work, I've also noticed that I've been more bold to speak out and not hesitate to ask questions either. I can't wait to see how this progresses because I'm already seeing big changes in me, and at this point they're all positive!
