02-16-2011, 10:47 PM
Not sure when I last updated, so here goes.
I started listening on the 1st, and six days in I read a thread that laptop computer speakers usually do not have a high enough fr to carry the subliminal, which is of course what I had been using for the six days
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But since then I put a copy of the stream, which I really like by the way, on cd and have been listening to that on my 10 yr old audiovox cd shelf system while I sleep.
I am starting to get some of my old feelings back from when I was doing certain energetic exercises. I am feeling indifferent, do not really care what happens or the consequences. It has been easier for me to go deeper into the more meditational aspects of one of my exercises. I actually did notice that I was walking a littler taller today on my way in to work.
So far there has been really no resistance that I can think of feeling. I am pretty sure alot of stuff has been cleared out from doing aforementioned exercises, I know stuff from when I was younger was cleared out, I remember that stuff, sucked at time but awesome afterward.
No resistance up until tonight. There is this girl who works at subway, I kind of know her, she used to work where I do, always thought she was cute and never forgot her, even though this was a few years ago. Anyway I go into subway one night after work a few weeks ago and there she is. So of course like an afc I start eating alot more subway. I would never kiss her....dairreare but I was feeling out the situation. So of course I find out tonight she has a boyfriend.
So after I leave I start getting those negative feelings, you will never find someone special, there is no one out there for you, why would anyone like you, etc. etc. etc.
Probably does not help that it is now my birthday
and I have no plans, no fun plans I should say for the day. 30 yrs old
where does it go. Well can't be much worse than my 20's or much better, but hopefully they will be
Ohh, will probably ask this in shannon's journal, but should I add an extra six days to the 32, since I don't think I was getting exposure through my laptop speakers?
If I don't get any thoughts then I will ask shannon.
I started listening on the 1st, and six days in I read a thread that laptop computer speakers usually do not have a high enough fr to carry the subliminal, which is of course what I had been using for the six days
.But since then I put a copy of the stream, which I really like by the way, on cd and have been listening to that on my 10 yr old audiovox cd shelf system while I sleep.
I am starting to get some of my old feelings back from when I was doing certain energetic exercises. I am feeling indifferent, do not really care what happens or the consequences. It has been easier for me to go deeper into the more meditational aspects of one of my exercises. I actually did notice that I was walking a littler taller today on my way in to work.
So far there has been really no resistance that I can think of feeling. I am pretty sure alot of stuff has been cleared out from doing aforementioned exercises, I know stuff from when I was younger was cleared out, I remember that stuff, sucked at time but awesome afterward.
No resistance up until tonight. There is this girl who works at subway, I kind of know her, she used to work where I do, always thought she was cute and never forgot her, even though this was a few years ago. Anyway I go into subway one night after work a few weeks ago and there she is. So of course like an afc I start eating alot more subway. I would never kiss her....dairreare but I was feeling out the situation. So of course I find out tonight she has a boyfriend.
So after I leave I start getting those negative feelings, you will never find someone special, there is no one out there for you, why would anyone like you, etc. etc. etc.Probably does not help that it is now my birthday
and I have no plans, no fun plans I should say for the day. 30 yrs old where does it go. Well can't be much worse than my 20's or much better, but hopefully they will beOhh, will probably ask this in shannon's journal, but should I add an extra six days to the 32, since I don't think I was getting exposure through my laptop speakers?
If I don't get any thoughts then I will ask shannon.
"Personality is the extent to which the individual has learned to convert his energies into habits or actions which successfully influence other people.
-Henry C. Link
"I see you have the ring Lonestar, and your Schwartz is as big as mine."
- Dark Helmet
-Henry C. Link
"I see you have the ring Lonestar, and your Schwartz is as big as mine."
- Dark Helmet
