09-07-2015, 05:24 AM
Yesterday I began to use the Larch Bach flower remedy.
10 mins later I began to feel more confident, I noticed I felt different and that my consciousness shifted, I felt better.
The way I walked changed a bit. The rest of the day I didn't notice anything that was different, at least nothing that I was sure that it was coming from the Larch remedy. I was esting a new pheromone 30 mins later so everything related to confidence could have been from that.
Today I have an headache because I drank too much yesterday. It seems that the Bach remedy is still opening some stuff in my head even if I'm so tired.
I was watching the Troy movies to let the time pass, I didn't want to aggravate my headache so I decided to watch a movie. At the same time I could study Brad Pitt. During the movie I realized some stuff about how the worlds seems to work, stuff I never realized before. What was striking me is that the things I realized was related to the Sun. Larch is a remedy for the Sun, when you have problem related to confidence and a lot of others stuff. The Sun is supposed to be intuitive, that he knows because he knows, for example he knows he is confident because he knows he is. That's how intuition is define in astrology. With intuition you acquire knowledge without using any of your 5 senses.
During that movie I realized I was feeling more intuitive, that everything was getting more simple, like I removed my blindness. I must have been pretty blind to not notice that the Bach flower remedy work so fast before or maybe at the time it wasn't working so fast.
At first I thought it was the alcohol or maybe I was being paranoid. Because it felt a bit like when I smoke marijuana. When I smoke marijuana I feel like my conscious mind is gone. The first hours I can still use my conscious mind a little but then it get worse with time, at the end I'm completely paranoid, I imagine all kind of situation in which if I don't do something right now I'm going to die the next day. Last time I had to sleep with a bottle of water so I can save the world and myself, I had to launch a command in my Linux to start AM6, if I didn't I would be stuck in a world with night only, the day would be gone.
It feels very real, and at the same time it's a bit like a dream because the next day it's hard to remember. It's a bit like being a completely different person, with different motive. I wouldn't say it's a great experience but I don't want to do it again but this experience gave a greater understanding. If it's how my unconscious think it's pretty scary, it means I have a lot of hidden fears. It wouldn't surprised me. It seems each person react very differently to this drug, some seems to control it with time, at least according to them. I think they are actually scared too but they won't admit it. What ayurveda tells about marijuana seems similar to what I found in my own experience, especially about the conscious mind being blocked. In summary I would describe marijuana as removing your conscious mind and adding paranoia to it. It could also be describe as a dog in a human body, as dogs are not conscious like us. The positive stuff in that state is that I can use my gut feeling way more easily. When I look at something I feel that all my previous experience with that thing come into my mind, it is very overwhelming. At some point I just think only and I don't do anything with my body. I imagine all kind of scenario, my imagination run wild.
Since I used this Larch remedies I feel a bit like that, on the imagination part not the paranoia part obviously. But it might just be because it is Sunday, and during During Sunday I noticed that I'm more imaginative. My Sun is in Pisces so it may be why I behaved that way during the Sunday.
10 mins later I began to feel more confident, I noticed I felt different and that my consciousness shifted, I felt better.
The way I walked changed a bit. The rest of the day I didn't notice anything that was different, at least nothing that I was sure that it was coming from the Larch remedy. I was esting a new pheromone 30 mins later so everything related to confidence could have been from that.
Today I have an headache because I drank too much yesterday. It seems that the Bach remedy is still opening some stuff in my head even if I'm so tired.
I was watching the Troy movies to let the time pass, I didn't want to aggravate my headache so I decided to watch a movie. At the same time I could study Brad Pitt. During the movie I realized some stuff about how the worlds seems to work, stuff I never realized before. What was striking me is that the things I realized was related to the Sun. Larch is a remedy for the Sun, when you have problem related to confidence and a lot of others stuff. The Sun is supposed to be intuitive, that he knows because he knows, for example he knows he is confident because he knows he is. That's how intuition is define in astrology. With intuition you acquire knowledge without using any of your 5 senses.
During that movie I realized I was feeling more intuitive, that everything was getting more simple, like I removed my blindness. I must have been pretty blind to not notice that the Bach flower remedy work so fast before or maybe at the time it wasn't working so fast.
At first I thought it was the alcohol or maybe I was being paranoid. Because it felt a bit like when I smoke marijuana. When I smoke marijuana I feel like my conscious mind is gone. The first hours I can still use my conscious mind a little but then it get worse with time, at the end I'm completely paranoid, I imagine all kind of situation in which if I don't do something right now I'm going to die the next day. Last time I had to sleep with a bottle of water so I can save the world and myself, I had to launch a command in my Linux to start AM6, if I didn't I would be stuck in a world with night only, the day would be gone.
It feels very real, and at the same time it's a bit like a dream because the next day it's hard to remember. It's a bit like being a completely different person, with different motive. I wouldn't say it's a great experience but I don't want to do it again but this experience gave a greater understanding. If it's how my unconscious think it's pretty scary, it means I have a lot of hidden fears. It wouldn't surprised me. It seems each person react very differently to this drug, some seems to control it with time, at least according to them. I think they are actually scared too but they won't admit it. What ayurveda tells about marijuana seems similar to what I found in my own experience, especially about the conscious mind being blocked. In summary I would describe marijuana as removing your conscious mind and adding paranoia to it. It could also be describe as a dog in a human body, as dogs are not conscious like us. The positive stuff in that state is that I can use my gut feeling way more easily. When I look at something I feel that all my previous experience with that thing come into my mind, it is very overwhelming. At some point I just think only and I don't do anything with my body. I imagine all kind of scenario, my imagination run wild.
Since I used this Larch remedies I feel a bit like that, on the imagination part not the paranoia part obviously. But it might just be because it is Sunday, and during During Sunday I noticed that I'm more imaginative. My Sun is in Pisces so it may be why I behaved that way during the Sunday.
