A Better Alex, stage 2: ASC Journal

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I've never used any medications, prescription or otherwise, to attempt to fix or otherwise control either of my two definite sleep disorders (delayed sleep phase syndrome, which was previously determined to have been a symptom of an underlying depression, and narcolepsy, the cause of which hasn't yet been officially determined but is likely chronic sleep deprivation). I've simply drunk copious amounts of coffee or Red Bull whenever I've felt like I'm about to fall asleep early in the day, and until October 2014 I felt I had nearly cured myself of the narcolepsy after 10 years of willpower and brute forcing my way through it.

I'm fairly certain this current lack of motivation is indicative of a depression, but I have no idea how long it's officially gone on or how deep it is. I have no job, no home, no girlfriend or sex partner, no friends, no family, and no currently viable means to fix any of that yet.