Hey Guys!
I'm done with the Stage 2 and during the last 16 days of it not much was observed, except for the fact that I decided to stop porn and masturbation altogether and the crazy mood swings.
In terms of porn/masturbation, it's only been 3 days so far. So, I cannot say that I've stopped it, but I hope I can keep it up, especially with the strong urges that I'm getting. On the flip side, I'm already starting to feel hornier during the day, which can only be good, and which is something I should be reminding myself when I start feeling weak.
For the mood swings, it's been crazy... I'm not sure if it is correct to associate this with the subs, but I surely hope that's the case. From my understanding Stage 2 is not supposed to do anything of the sort. Correct me if I'm wrong here. That being said, I can definitely say that during these last 2 weeks I've had my highest highs and my lowest lows in a good while. During the high swing, I had a nice and controlled confidence and optimism. Life seemed to be awesome and I had a faith of a great future. I had a sense of calmness, I was more friendly and polite to strangers and people at work, and I was appreciating beauty at unprecedented levels (whether that be in nature, art, or women).
During the low swing, it was the complete opposite. Life seemed pointless to the point that I thought it was depression and had urges of crying for no apparent reason. I sometimes let myself cry, but sometimes I wouldn't have the privacy for it. I started having feelings that I was behind in life, that I should stop the subs (but stuck thru it eventually), and that it would have been better if I'd never been born at all... By the way, this could be quarter life crisis. I'm 29. Any advice here or sharing of similar past experience would be greatly appreciated. Luckily, the positivity came back during the last 2 days.
In terms of books, I read "The Life You Were Born to Live" by Dan Millman. It's an okay book at most. I was expecting more from it. Now I'm reading "Think and Grow Rich" by Napoleon Hill. Almost done with it and it's amazing so far! After this, I have a couple of spiritual healing and psychic development books lined up. They're going to be my first exposure to the topics, which I feel myself pulled towards recently. Hope they'll be good
In all, I did 490 hours of Stage 2, 190 masked and 300 silent. That's a bit more than 15 hours a day on average, which beats my goal of 12
I'm done with the Stage 2 and during the last 16 days of it not much was observed, except for the fact that I decided to stop porn and masturbation altogether and the crazy mood swings.
In terms of porn/masturbation, it's only been 3 days so far. So, I cannot say that I've stopped it, but I hope I can keep it up, especially with the strong urges that I'm getting. On the flip side, I'm already starting to feel hornier during the day, which can only be good, and which is something I should be reminding myself when I start feeling weak.
For the mood swings, it's been crazy... I'm not sure if it is correct to associate this with the subs, but I surely hope that's the case. From my understanding Stage 2 is not supposed to do anything of the sort. Correct me if I'm wrong here. That being said, I can definitely say that during these last 2 weeks I've had my highest highs and my lowest lows in a good while. During the high swing, I had a nice and controlled confidence and optimism. Life seemed to be awesome and I had a faith of a great future. I had a sense of calmness, I was more friendly and polite to strangers and people at work, and I was appreciating beauty at unprecedented levels (whether that be in nature, art, or women).
During the low swing, it was the complete opposite. Life seemed pointless to the point that I thought it was depression and had urges of crying for no apparent reason. I sometimes let myself cry, but sometimes I wouldn't have the privacy for it. I started having feelings that I was behind in life, that I should stop the subs (but stuck thru it eventually), and that it would have been better if I'd never been born at all... By the way, this could be quarter life crisis. I'm 29. Any advice here or sharing of similar past experience would be greatly appreciated. Luckily, the positivity came back during the last 2 days.
In terms of books, I read "The Life You Were Born to Live" by Dan Millman. It's an okay book at most. I was expecting more from it. Now I'm reading "Think and Grow Rich" by Napoleon Hill. Almost done with it and it's amazing so far! After this, I have a couple of spiritual healing and psychic development books lined up. They're going to be my first exposure to the topics, which I feel myself pulled towards recently. Hope they'll be good
In all, I did 490 hours of Stage 2, 190 masked and 300 silent. That's a bit more than 15 hours a day on average, which beats my goal of 12
INFJ
