08-02-2015, 07:47 AM
well. I was just thinking about the mind playing games as @CatMan said.
I did come across things which happened during my sub run.
after I started asc.
1. there's this gal who had a breakup. I've never met her. but we are online friends since6-7 years. she is my Friend's ex.
wen on June 7/8 , I was pretty down as my ex got engaged. I told her ,she said she'll help me out as she has been thru it but she didn't cos of her obsessive bf. I was expecting a lot from her cos I considered her a powerhouse of positivity. but she didn't. wat added fuel to fire was she promised n she dint.
a month down d lane, the table had turned. (somewhat as I dint have a gf then)
she was dumped. so wat followed was a 15 days support to her. I was fresh on my own wounds yet helping her out was like salt on wound. wat I was trying to forget was reminded NY her.
finally 15 days later she did wat I asked her to avoid. she met d guy. I don't know wat conversation they had abt me as I was an online frnd. the guy abused me and threatened me. I couldn't reply him in his words as I was in office. I wanted to but couldn't . again she called me n asked that why did I abuse her ex. and I was like blah, he was d one who was abusing, he was harsh. I didn't, (actually couldn't) utter anything disrespectful. though I was damn angry on her for blaming me for wat I didn't do, was helping her heal while rubbing salt on my wounds and most importantly being there for her whereas she wasn't for me.
so basically could this be the 'universe's trick ' asked by my mind to stop the sub's.
2. another online frnd who a bit helped me after that engagement. though she never talked on phone or met me (we were friends 3 years ago, but since then only online friends), all she did was chatt to me. talking abt my ex was a strict no no from her side. but yet we talked a lot. but all of a sudden she stopped giving me attention. whereas Iwas trying
to get it.
another resistance I guess.
anyways I'll stop it. if she has to give she'll give.
I did come across things which happened during my sub run.
after I started asc.
1. there's this gal who had a breakup. I've never met her. but we are online friends since6-7 years. she is my Friend's ex.
wen on June 7/8 , I was pretty down as my ex got engaged. I told her ,she said she'll help me out as she has been thru it but she didn't cos of her obsessive bf. I was expecting a lot from her cos I considered her a powerhouse of positivity. but she didn't. wat added fuel to fire was she promised n she dint.
a month down d lane, the table had turned. (somewhat as I dint have a gf then)
she was dumped. so wat followed was a 15 days support to her. I was fresh on my own wounds yet helping her out was like salt on wound. wat I was trying to forget was reminded NY her.
finally 15 days later she did wat I asked her to avoid. she met d guy. I don't know wat conversation they had abt me as I was an online frnd. the guy abused me and threatened me. I couldn't reply him in his words as I was in office. I wanted to but couldn't . again she called me n asked that why did I abuse her ex. and I was like blah, he was d one who was abusing, he was harsh. I didn't, (actually couldn't) utter anything disrespectful. though I was damn angry on her for blaming me for wat I didn't do, was helping her heal while rubbing salt on my wounds and most importantly being there for her whereas she wasn't for me.
so basically could this be the 'universe's trick ' asked by my mind to stop the sub's.
2. another online frnd who a bit helped me after that engagement. though she never talked on phone or met me (we were friends 3 years ago, but since then only online friends), all she did was chatt to me. talking abt my ex was a strict no no from her side. but yet we talked a lot. but all of a sudden she stopped giving me attention. whereas Iwas trying
to get it.
another resistance I guess.
anyways I'll stop it. if she has to give she'll give.
