06-16-2015, 06:25 PM
Alright alright, I'm finally willing to admit again that these subliminals do in fact work...or at least have an effect. I'm about 2 weeks into Stage 6, and it has had some noticeable effects.
First, while at work, I found myself in a situation where I was arguing with a guy I had seen for the first time in my life. The topic and details are trivial, but I didn't realize it that I stood my ground and didn't back down. The old me would have just apologized and walked away red in the face, sweaty, heart beating fast, and defeated. But this time, I held my composure and didn't even give a second thought of backing down. In the end, it turned out to be a bad miscommunication and I saw that guy later in the day and we both apologized (aka, the story had happy ending). When I realized what had transpired, I was floored at how I conducted myself, I couldn't believe I did that...it was awesome. I don't know how it happened (probably the sub), but I'm just no longer afraid of confrontation.
Apart from my school and work life being in total flux, I do feel like I can still accomplish great things. I've started playing guitar more, reading, and in general, am more productive....aka less video games. I know everything will be alright and I can rely on myself much more that I used to be able to. When things get tough, I get tougher.
There seems to be a strong emphasis of 'leadership' going on with me too. I've noticed that in social situations (work, friends, bars, anywhere), I've been doing the leading. It's quite a radical change. Also, my dreams have been nothing but being the leader of armies, countries, people, animals, women...everything. It's quite empowering, which may explain why I'm no longer afraid of confrontation.
Also, the attention from women started to ramp up as well. However, my problem is that as of right now, I'm not entirely happy with myself (25 year old still in school, haven't accomplished anything, barely make any money...), so I don't feel like I deserve to be with a girl at the moment. But the funny thing is, because of this, I don't try to get with or impress girls, which makes me act 'cooler' around them and so they wind up liking me more. I know it sounds so damn stupid, but it's true, and I've turned down 4 different girls in the past month. Once I get my shit together, then I'll revisit this topic.
First, while at work, I found myself in a situation where I was arguing with a guy I had seen for the first time in my life. The topic and details are trivial, but I didn't realize it that I stood my ground and didn't back down. The old me would have just apologized and walked away red in the face, sweaty, heart beating fast, and defeated. But this time, I held my composure and didn't even give a second thought of backing down. In the end, it turned out to be a bad miscommunication and I saw that guy later in the day and we both apologized (aka, the story had happy ending). When I realized what had transpired, I was floored at how I conducted myself, I couldn't believe I did that...it was awesome. I don't know how it happened (probably the sub), but I'm just no longer afraid of confrontation.
Apart from my school and work life being in total flux, I do feel like I can still accomplish great things. I've started playing guitar more, reading, and in general, am more productive....aka less video games. I know everything will be alright and I can rely on myself much more that I used to be able to. When things get tough, I get tougher.
There seems to be a strong emphasis of 'leadership' going on with me too. I've noticed that in social situations (work, friends, bars, anywhere), I've been doing the leading. It's quite a radical change. Also, my dreams have been nothing but being the leader of armies, countries, people, animals, women...everything. It's quite empowering, which may explain why I'm no longer afraid of confrontation.
Also, the attention from women started to ramp up as well. However, my problem is that as of right now, I'm not entirely happy with myself (25 year old still in school, haven't accomplished anything, barely make any money...), so I don't feel like I deserve to be with a girl at the moment. But the funny thing is, because of this, I don't try to get with or impress girls, which makes me act 'cooler' around them and so they wind up liking me more. I know it sounds so damn stupid, but it's true, and I've turned down 4 different girls in the past month. Once I get my shit together, then I'll revisit this topic.
