04-23-2015, 12:33 AM
AfzalG- You know I find it interesting that you mention that stage 2 is the stage where you got the most amount of women. Stage 2 seemed like the only stage in this program so far where I felt like I got any type of attraction from women (also the stage where I got attention from that red head earlier in this thread). I think I do have some guesses as to what is keeping me from fully manifesting all the programming though. I use to be a very expressive person, until I got to private junior high and high school. Once I started attending private school I started getting mocked and made fun of mostly for my voice (I have a very monotone voice) and wasn't taken seriously by others. I think because of this I started to become more introverted and close myself off from others a lot. I think this has built up a lot of fear and shame around my voice and expressing myself. Its because of this that I feel like doing EPRHA would probably better remove any roadblocks towards future use of Magnet programs than doing 3 months of WM refresher. The refresher might give me some results but I feel like that might be fleeting since the refresher might just suppress my issues instead of clearing them out completely. On top of this I feel like stage 5 has definitely shown me that I have some form of Misanthropic feelings or beliefs that leads me to being somewhat asocial. This would explain why WM helped me get rid of social anxiety for the most part but there was no change in actually wanting to be more social (except for stage 1).Not that I haven't tried to get out there despite this though.
As for your list of characteristics for the different programs is pretty much spot on. For WM I wasn't expecting the ice cold part that you and I have experienced. I firmly believe that even if I were getting results that I would have concluded right now that in the end that women isn't what I really wanted in the end. Thats the interesting thing about the abundance mentality. Since you don't find any one woman uniquely highly valuable and take on a "there's plenty of them out there mentality" women as a whole start to move down on your list of priorities. A thirst for power (as in moving up the social strata) and wanting to become strong (mentally/emotionally) has taken priority since starting this program.
Anyway, I will keep going though I'm not expecting much else to happen for the remainder of this program. Overall, the internal changes of this program have been nice so I can't complain too much and honestly I don't really care about women all that much anymore like I said. The only reason I was kinda of let down was because of the money spent on this program only to miss the mark when it came to the main goal (women).
As for your list of characteristics for the different programs is pretty much spot on. For WM I wasn't expecting the ice cold part that you and I have experienced. I firmly believe that even if I were getting results that I would have concluded right now that in the end that women isn't what I really wanted in the end. Thats the interesting thing about the abundance mentality. Since you don't find any one woman uniquely highly valuable and take on a "there's plenty of them out there mentality" women as a whole start to move down on your list of priorities. A thirst for power (as in moving up the social strata) and wanting to become strong (mentally/emotionally) has taken priority since starting this program.
Anyway, I will keep going though I'm not expecting much else to happen for the remainder of this program. Overall, the internal changes of this program have been nice so I can't complain too much and honestly I don't really care about women all that much anymore like I said. The only reason I was kinda of let down was because of the money spent on this program only to miss the mark when it came to the main goal (women).
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche