01-27-2011, 08:19 PM
I was going to a great therapist, then my insurance stopped covering him which sucked. I was going to a new one for a while but he was an absolute dick to me. His solution to my anxiety was that it was all in my head and I should just keep pushing myself out of my comfort zone. Basically he told me that anxiety was my fault and that I should stop doing it to myself. Not helpful at all, in fact he made me feel worse about myself because now I was under the impression that I was just weak and not trying hard enough. He would constantly criticize me and tell me I needed to get out more and find more friends. I'm almost positive he was just milking my insurance for all that it was worth, he didn't give a damn about me.
I'll see how the subliminal works and take it from there. My mom's side of the family has a history of depression and anxiety, so I more than likely inherited some of those problems. I might have a legitimate biological cause which I believe can only be treated with medication. As much as I appreciate a therapists knowledge and advice, I have studied psychology and abnormal psychology. I don't believe I would benefit from actual therapy, meaning talking about the problem extensively or utilizing techniques. Cognitive behavioral therapy seems to be the big thing in the field of psychology these days, but I've been managing my negative thinking for years utilizing meditation and mindfulness. It's the irrational fear and heightened sense of arousal which leads me to believe that I have a very sensitive and over-reactive sympathetic nervous system.
But I could be jumping the gun. I will more accurately asses my problem after the subliminal is complete. I understand the power of subliminals, but I just overestimate the power of the human mind sometimes. I got caught in a lot of new age material that says that the subconscious mind can do anything as long as your beliefs are powerful enough, but the brain isn't as simple as that and I do believe there are limits. I guess I could give an analogy. It's like having a busted up car. Let's say you have all the tools to repair everything except the engine. You can't ignore the engine because it is a vital part of the car and the current tools you have won't work no matter how hard you try.
I'll see how the subliminal works and take it from there. My mom's side of the family has a history of depression and anxiety, so I more than likely inherited some of those problems. I might have a legitimate biological cause which I believe can only be treated with medication. As much as I appreciate a therapists knowledge and advice, I have studied psychology and abnormal psychology. I don't believe I would benefit from actual therapy, meaning talking about the problem extensively or utilizing techniques. Cognitive behavioral therapy seems to be the big thing in the field of psychology these days, but I've been managing my negative thinking for years utilizing meditation and mindfulness. It's the irrational fear and heightened sense of arousal which leads me to believe that I have a very sensitive and over-reactive sympathetic nervous system.
But I could be jumping the gun. I will more accurately asses my problem after the subliminal is complete. I understand the power of subliminals, but I just overestimate the power of the human mind sometimes. I got caught in a lot of new age material that says that the subconscious mind can do anything as long as your beliefs are powerful enough, but the brain isn't as simple as that and I do believe there are limits. I guess I could give an analogy. It's like having a busted up car. Let's say you have all the tools to repair everything except the engine. You can't ignore the engine because it is a vital part of the car and the current tools you have won't work no matter how hard you try.
