WildFlower's 2011 Alpha Male Journal

[WildFlower]

For the first day today I'm noticing the - for lack of a better word - aggression. It's all under control and I have enough self control to put it to good use. The other thing I'm getting at the moment is this constant fluxing of emotions. All good emotions, it feels as if my body is much more alive and fluid emotionally. Not emotions connected to thoughts either, my mental activity is very calm and cleansed, but my physical body is alive with this sloshing around of emotion. I feel the emotions totally physically and they're more of an 'atmosphere' than a distinct feeling that you can label. It's odd to have the warm fuzzies at the same time I have the Stage 1 Alpha Male aggressions. Subtle joy, peace, enjoyable melancholy, ecstatic energy that makes it hard for to sit still, these are the atmospheres constantly changing within me. I know these are the kind of feelings I associate with Charisma - could it be that? I definitely didn't get this when I used the 2009 set, I don't know if it is the result of a script change. Beneath all this, there is still that unshakable, graceful comfort that won't go away.