04-01-2015, 09:30 AM
Stage 4 Day 13
It's funny how resistance for this stage picked only half way through it. During previous stages first week or so was the hardest and then it varied, but here it rose slowly until now. I feel tired all the time and I feel really dissociated from people, almost as if I was in different dimension than I am. I blame two things for that. First the weather here is atrocious; one second it is beautiful outside just to change into storm of 8-9 in Beaufort scale and I don't think those shifts in weather and low pressure is good for me. Second thing I notice my BS detector is off the charts and it's getting more and more difficult to accept it. And since my friends I spend time with on the daily basis are not exactly avatars of maturity and thinking I get quite angry, which obviously I hold inside in kind of passive-aggressive toxin.
That resistance is not why I'm writing however. I want to ask for advice. Tonight I had the most awesome dream of my life. Mainly because it was my first proper lucid dream. I had a couple of those back in high school when I was trying to get those, but all I got were a couple of awakenings which either kicked me out of the dream a few seconds later, or I would loose control over the dream and wake up a minute later without doing anything cool. Here it was different, awakening was gentle and it lasted for half a hour. The problem is a lot of circumstances had accumulated there which I think will make it hard for me to recreate these conditions, and even so I might not awake next time. So if you are knowledge about LD or you practice it yourself, any advice or recommended sites/forums? I've googled around, but all I found so far is the same vague talk I know from a couple of years back. Also I'm curious if I could use LD and visualizations together, focusing on both every night would be problematic joining the effort would be awesome
It's funny how resistance for this stage picked only half way through it. During previous stages first week or so was the hardest and then it varied, but here it rose slowly until now. I feel tired all the time and I feel really dissociated from people, almost as if I was in different dimension than I am. I blame two things for that. First the weather here is atrocious; one second it is beautiful outside just to change into storm of 8-9 in Beaufort scale and I don't think those shifts in weather and low pressure is good for me. Second thing I notice my BS detector is off the charts and it's getting more and more difficult to accept it. And since my friends I spend time with on the daily basis are not exactly avatars of maturity and thinking I get quite angry, which obviously I hold inside in kind of passive-aggressive toxin.
That resistance is not why I'm writing however. I want to ask for advice. Tonight I had the most awesome dream of my life. Mainly because it was my first proper lucid dream. I had a couple of those back in high school when I was trying to get those, but all I got were a couple of awakenings which either kicked me out of the dream a few seconds later, or I would loose control over the dream and wake up a minute later without doing anything cool. Here it was different, awakening was gentle and it lasted for half a hour. The problem is a lot of circumstances had accumulated there which I think will make it hard for me to recreate these conditions, and even so I might not awake next time. So if you are knowledge about LD or you practice it yourself, any advice or recommended sites/forums? I've googled around, but all I found so far is the same vague talk I know from a couple of years back. Also I'm curious if I could use LD and visualizations together, focusing on both every night would be problematic joining the effort would be awesome
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
