03-29-2015, 03:48 PM
(This post was last modified: 03-29-2015, 03:52 PM by Why So Serious?.)
Lately I feel like I'm losing my mind. One minute I feel pretty good the next I feel all of this anxiety and depression.
Then I start looking at other subs I could be doing when I finish AF instead of running it again. It gets so bad that I really do want to give up even though I'm only 13 days away from completing it.
It's sad and annoying at the same time.
Had a couple of weird dreams. One was about a ufo that was enormous. Anyone who was in contact with or saw the ufo developed a wired mixture of cancer and ebola. It wasn't contagious but it was on the news. Everyone was worried about what kind of technology could do that, if there were aliens on the ship or was it remote controlled, and if they were on the ship did they land somewhere on earth undetected. Woke up panicking and felt that way for a day.
The other dream was that my boss was mad at me and fired me. He was telling me about he didn't like me form the start and so other stuff that I can't remember. I asked was it because of my race and he just smiled like you know it. I then started talking back about all things he had done that wasn't right that could have gotten him fired. I was scared when all of this happened but intuition told me not to be and that I have better opportunities. I was trying to figure out how I could get my unemployment from the company and they granted it to me. I woke up feeling neutral about that event.
So close to finishing the first round of AF.
Then I start looking at other subs I could be doing when I finish AF instead of running it again. It gets so bad that I really do want to give up even though I'm only 13 days away from completing it. It's sad and annoying at the same time.Had a couple of weird dreams. One was about a ufo that was enormous. Anyone who was in contact with or saw the ufo developed a wired mixture of cancer and ebola. It wasn't contagious but it was on the news. Everyone was worried about what kind of technology could do that, if there were aliens on the ship or was it remote controlled, and if they were on the ship did they land somewhere on earth undetected. Woke up panicking and felt that way for a day.
The other dream was that my boss was mad at me and fired me. He was telling me about he didn't like me form the start and so other stuff that I can't remember. I asked was it because of my race and he just smiled like you know it. I then started talking back about all things he had done that wasn't right that could have gotten him fired. I was scared when all of this happened but intuition told me not to be and that I have better opportunities. I was trying to figure out how I could get my unemployment from the company and they granted it to me. I woke up feeling neutral about that event.
So close to finishing the first round of AF.
