03-07-2017, 08:52 AM
So...here I am, finally writing a journal. I'm not very good at this but if it could help Shannon, providing a female perspective...why not.
My goal of running the sub is not to get sex. I don't need any help with that
. What I want is for it to clear and heal any unhealthy beliefs I have about myself. I want to be comfortable with my sexuality and sexual attractiveness. Of course, hot guys hitting on me would be a bonus...
Currently on day 5 of 3.1. I listen to Hybrid Trickling Stream with earbuds on my MBP at bedtime. I only feel the euphoria when volume is low. Bigger is not always better
.
I listened to 3.0.1 for 45 days before this, switched to 3.1 without a break. Didn't notice any turbulence or extra tiredness.
Internal changes: my IDGAF attitude is strong, and it comes from a place of self-acceptance. US helps me become more productive at work and stay focus on the end goal. I no longer worry about things I have no control over in the physical world. I trust in the power of the mind and visualize the outcome I want instead. More compassionate and understanding towards other people.
External changes: Skin seems more glowy, voice is higher and more feminine.
On 3.0.1: reconnected with an old flame, he sent me home and left abruptly. He later texted me that he had to leave or else he couldn't control himself anymore. Nothing happened though because I'm no longer interested in him sexually. A male friend got really touchy while talking, and another (very platonic) male friend became flirty and tried to make me laugh a lot more than usual. Other than that...nothing much happened, just more long, obvious staring from men in public.
My goal of running the sub is not to get sex. I don't need any help with that
. What I want is for it to clear and heal any unhealthy beliefs I have about myself. I want to be comfortable with my sexuality and sexual attractiveness. Of course, hot guys hitting on me would be a bonus...Currently on day 5 of 3.1. I listen to Hybrid Trickling Stream with earbuds on my MBP at bedtime. I only feel the euphoria when volume is low. Bigger is not always better
.I listened to 3.0.1 for 45 days before this, switched to 3.1 without a break. Didn't notice any turbulence or extra tiredness.
Internal changes: my IDGAF attitude is strong, and it comes from a place of self-acceptance. US helps me become more productive at work and stay focus on the end goal. I no longer worry about things I have no control over in the physical world. I trust in the power of the mind and visualize the outcome I want instead. More compassionate and understanding towards other people.
External changes: Skin seems more glowy, voice is higher and more feminine.
On 3.0.1: reconnected with an old flame, he sent me home and left abruptly. He later texted me that he had to leave or else he couldn't control himself anymore. Nothing happened though because I'm no longer interested in him sexually. A male friend got really touchy while talking, and another (very platonic) male friend became flirty and tried to make me laugh a lot more than usual. Other than that...nothing much happened, just more long, obvious staring from men in public.
