03-17-2015, 04:54 PM
Listening Time: 13 hours
These past few days, I've had some interesting experiences that range from "maybe this is something that doesn't happen as often" to "That is just Amazing."
- I recently read an article this past weekend that talked about how men who wear the color red are perceived as more sexually-attractive and of higher status to most women. What poked my interest further in this article, was how the author stated that the color most alpha males are associated with is red. So I figured, there won't be any harm done if I experimented with this. So yesterday, I wore the most basic red shirt I had and headed out the door. The results? Although not conclusive, I did feel like I had more women stare at me than before. All of their stares weren't the same as some just gave a quick glance while others stared as long as 8 seconds. If anything, I felt my presence was felt by most of the females that were in my vicinity. Still will experimenting more with this, but I did bought a pair of red shirts afterwards lol.
- Yesterday, I had an unusual interaction with a girl I once had a crush on. I've known her since the beginning of the semester and, admittedly, I thought she was a gorgeous brunette in the class. But as we interacted more throughout the semester, her personality and one rude comment towards me pretty much killed any attraction I had towards her. Now? I just ignore her like we've never met before. Well yesterday, as I was listening to some music while waiting for class, she sees me and tries to start up a conversation with me. I was very brief with my replies and when the conversation died down, I casually put my headphones back on and went about my business. Then as I sat down in my chair and read up on some sports news, she somehow walks up to the side of my chair and waves at me. I asked her what did she want, and she then asked do I take good notes. My mind was like, "why do you care if I take good notes?" She then goes on to say she wasn't in class during the week before spring break and wanted to know what all she missed for the lectures that week. I casually took my notebook out and showed her the notes for that week. She then asked if she could take pictures of my notes, which I nonchalantly said sure. She takes a couple a pictures and then goes back to her seat. 5 minutes later, as I'm putting my iPod/Headphones into my backpack, she then waves me down again and asked if she could see my notes again. Now my mind is like, "What's so great about my notes that you need to see them again? Obviously there are other people in the class who have taken better notes than me." By then, I figured there would be no harm done if she's only looking at my notes, so I just gave her my notebook. This time she took a good 8 minutes to copy off whatever notes she needed from my notebook. I was growing impatient as the teacher was just about to start lecturing in the class. Then, just before the lecture starts, she quickly handed my notebook back. At the time, I didn't think much of it. But now, I do wonder if not giving her attention and truthfully ignoring her is what triggered her to act in such a way. Whatever the case may be, my attraction for her is still zero. We shall see what she does next.
- Today I went to a spring practice that my school's football team was having. I figured this would be a good opportunity to learn how to write scouting reports and build up my portfolio for future references. Throughout this practice, a lot of the student-assistants whom I used to work with some years back still remembered me and where acting very brotherly, asking me what all I've been up to and if I was going to come visit again later on. Then, I ran into a coach I used to be an assistant under. It's a long history between us, but to make the long story short, I had some deep hatred for him. Back in my early days of college when I was trying to play college football, he was the first coach that I sent my recruiting video to. As I follow-up with him, he wouldn't offer me a position as a walk-on, but he was willing to offer me a position as a student assistant. That's when the hatred began, as I felt he never gave me the opportunity to showcase what I can do. My hatred for him only grow more as I would help out during practices and other coaches/players felt I had the size and capability to at least become a walk-on. But the problem was, I could only become a walk-on if he gave me the green light. He never did. His reasoning? He felt I didn't have the talent to play football and that I would only be a liability if I somehow "injured" one of the star players during practices. By then, I had enough of being his puppet and left the team all-together. A part of me was really hurt because I was leaving behind some of the players that I've became friends with, but left with this deep hatred for that coach and all the other coaches who agreed with his assessment of me. This hatred I carried with me for years to come. Even just thinking about the team throughout those years just made that hatred come up and boil within me before settling down.
Well fast forward to today's practice. I had moved on and even he had moved on as he was no longer coaching but was now an admin for the football team. Deep down, I just knew we were going to cross paths again. Sure enough, as I was talking with a security guard about my scouting report, he happened to walk by and recognized me. We both shook hands and I congratulated him on his new position as an admin. From there, he did most of the talking by asking me a lot of personal questions about my life, academics, and my career-plans after college. After saying all that, he said that he missed working with me and that if I needed anything, he can find me in the admin office. That's when something hit me. That hatred I had for me started to died down, this time for good. Even before I left, I gave him my business card and told him I wouldn't mind coming back to help evaluate/scout the players if there was a position-opening, to which he said he would touch bases with me on that. Overall, I have to credit the EPHRA within AM6 for given me the mindset to forgive him. Like I said, for a long time I had a deep hatred for him and the team. But now? I just don't feel it anymore. I let go of the past and just look on the bright side of the present and future. The way I see it, the bridge that I'd burned between me and him has been rebuilt. It's up to him if he wants to reach out to me, but I feel good that I no longer have that hatred towards him. I can now focus on the future and who knows, his connections may be just what I need to get to the big league as a scouter. Rest assured, I do plan to visit the team more often now.
That's it for today's update. Looking forward to starting Stage 4 next weekend.
These past few days, I've had some interesting experiences that range from "maybe this is something that doesn't happen as often" to "That is just Amazing."
- I recently read an article this past weekend that talked about how men who wear the color red are perceived as more sexually-attractive and of higher status to most women. What poked my interest further in this article, was how the author stated that the color most alpha males are associated with is red. So I figured, there won't be any harm done if I experimented with this. So yesterday, I wore the most basic red shirt I had and headed out the door. The results? Although not conclusive, I did feel like I had more women stare at me than before. All of their stares weren't the same as some just gave a quick glance while others stared as long as 8 seconds. If anything, I felt my presence was felt by most of the females that were in my vicinity. Still will experimenting more with this, but I did bought a pair of red shirts afterwards lol.
- Yesterday, I had an unusual interaction with a girl I once had a crush on. I've known her since the beginning of the semester and, admittedly, I thought she was a gorgeous brunette in the class. But as we interacted more throughout the semester, her personality and one rude comment towards me pretty much killed any attraction I had towards her. Now? I just ignore her like we've never met before. Well yesterday, as I was listening to some music while waiting for class, she sees me and tries to start up a conversation with me. I was very brief with my replies and when the conversation died down, I casually put my headphones back on and went about my business. Then as I sat down in my chair and read up on some sports news, she somehow walks up to the side of my chair and waves at me. I asked her what did she want, and she then asked do I take good notes. My mind was like, "why do you care if I take good notes?" She then goes on to say she wasn't in class during the week before spring break and wanted to know what all she missed for the lectures that week. I casually took my notebook out and showed her the notes for that week. She then asked if she could take pictures of my notes, which I nonchalantly said sure. She takes a couple a pictures and then goes back to her seat. 5 minutes later, as I'm putting my iPod/Headphones into my backpack, she then waves me down again and asked if she could see my notes again. Now my mind is like, "What's so great about my notes that you need to see them again? Obviously there are other people in the class who have taken better notes than me." By then, I figured there would be no harm done if she's only looking at my notes, so I just gave her my notebook. This time she took a good 8 minutes to copy off whatever notes she needed from my notebook. I was growing impatient as the teacher was just about to start lecturing in the class. Then, just before the lecture starts, she quickly handed my notebook back. At the time, I didn't think much of it. But now, I do wonder if not giving her attention and truthfully ignoring her is what triggered her to act in such a way. Whatever the case may be, my attraction for her is still zero. We shall see what she does next.
- Today I went to a spring practice that my school's football team was having. I figured this would be a good opportunity to learn how to write scouting reports and build up my portfolio for future references. Throughout this practice, a lot of the student-assistants whom I used to work with some years back still remembered me and where acting very brotherly, asking me what all I've been up to and if I was going to come visit again later on. Then, I ran into a coach I used to be an assistant under. It's a long history between us, but to make the long story short, I had some deep hatred for him. Back in my early days of college when I was trying to play college football, he was the first coach that I sent my recruiting video to. As I follow-up with him, he wouldn't offer me a position as a walk-on, but he was willing to offer me a position as a student assistant. That's when the hatred began, as I felt he never gave me the opportunity to showcase what I can do. My hatred for him only grow more as I would help out during practices and other coaches/players felt I had the size and capability to at least become a walk-on. But the problem was, I could only become a walk-on if he gave me the green light. He never did. His reasoning? He felt I didn't have the talent to play football and that I would only be a liability if I somehow "injured" one of the star players during practices. By then, I had enough of being his puppet and left the team all-together. A part of me was really hurt because I was leaving behind some of the players that I've became friends with, but left with this deep hatred for that coach and all the other coaches who agreed with his assessment of me. This hatred I carried with me for years to come. Even just thinking about the team throughout those years just made that hatred come up and boil within me before settling down.
Well fast forward to today's practice. I had moved on and even he had moved on as he was no longer coaching but was now an admin for the football team. Deep down, I just knew we were going to cross paths again. Sure enough, as I was talking with a security guard about my scouting report, he happened to walk by and recognized me. We both shook hands and I congratulated him on his new position as an admin. From there, he did most of the talking by asking me a lot of personal questions about my life, academics, and my career-plans after college. After saying all that, he said that he missed working with me and that if I needed anything, he can find me in the admin office. That's when something hit me. That hatred I had for me started to died down, this time for good. Even before I left, I gave him my business card and told him I wouldn't mind coming back to help evaluate/scout the players if there was a position-opening, to which he said he would touch bases with me on that. Overall, I have to credit the EPHRA within AM6 for given me the mindset to forgive him. Like I said, for a long time I had a deep hatred for him and the team. But now? I just don't feel it anymore. I let go of the past and just look on the bright side of the present and future. The way I see it, the bridge that I'd burned between me and him has been rebuilt. It's up to him if he wants to reach out to me, but I feel good that I no longer have that hatred towards him. I can now focus on the future and who knows, his connections may be just what I need to get to the big league as a scouter. Rest assured, I do plan to visit the team more often now.
That's it for today's update. Looking forward to starting Stage 4 next weekend.
