03-15-2015, 08:13 PM
Listening Time: 13 hours
The changes within me are starting to become more pronounce. The changes so far have been:
- Indifference to people. I would say at least 88% of the time, I do not care what others think of me. I never forget when I recently had a conversation with my mom and she was worried about something I was going to do that will make people talk negatively about me. My response? I told her people are going to talk about you no matter if it's good or bad, so you might as well do what you gotta do. The look on her face after my response? Priceless. I also voiced my opinion about some items within my church that needed to be remove as they provide no use for any of the church functions. The bishop tried to intimidate me by making it my responsibility to remove them and to clean up the mess that came with it, but I was unmoved by his tactic. In fact, one of my uncles told me he will come down to help me do the job, free of charge.
- More driven to start working towards my dream career. Roughly 90% of the thoughts that's been in my head lately has been visualizing myself as an NFL General Manager and making moves that will get me there. I've been very active in reaching out to people that have networking credentials and finding ways to meet them in-person. I feel like I now know, deep down within me, what I want to do with my life. It's now about making moves and putting myself out there to get to where I need to go. Being that I'm now a semester and a half away from graduating, my focus has now been looking for an entry-level job or internships in the career field I'm going into. The way I'm being active so far, I'm bound to land something coming up.
- Interest in women have gone way down. Because of my drive to accomplish my future career and newfound indifference to people and their opinions about me, my interest in women is almost nonexistent. At the same time, my standards in regard to women have gone up as well. I've already mentioned in one of my earlier posts how I went though my contacts on Facebook and remove myself from any and every girl whom have been nothing but an emotional/mental blockage in my past and present. I'm now starting to find out what type of women I'm attracted to. I'm more attracted to the submissive types and the ones whom will actually support my career that I will be pursuing. I'm no longer attracted to the strong-willed, superficial, narrow-minded, man-hating women that seem to be prevalent among my age-range (early to late 20's). The way I see it, if you're not fully on-board to where I'm going in life and know your role as a woman in the relationship, then I have no time for you and you best to find yourself a beta man who will tend to your every whim. Don't get me wrong, I do see myself getting married in the future. But my career is more important now than trying to find someone to be with. For a long time, before the subs, I felt just having one girl in my life would make it seem so much better. Now? I only see it as a hinderance unless she's willing to accept the fact that my future goals are more important than her right now. I feel like I now know when to show a girl some attention when it's warranted, but never am I going to shower a girl with affection and attention on every breaking moment (Reading Ben's adventures lately have given me great insight). There are plenty of fishes in the sea, no need to be chasing after one when they will come to you eventually if you focus on other things.
That's it from my insight in Stage 3 so far. Tomorrow will mark 21 days since on Stage 3 and will be beginning Stage 4 on next week. Looking forward to it.
The changes within me are starting to become more pronounce. The changes so far have been:
- Indifference to people. I would say at least 88% of the time, I do not care what others think of me. I never forget when I recently had a conversation with my mom and she was worried about something I was going to do that will make people talk negatively about me. My response? I told her people are going to talk about you no matter if it's good or bad, so you might as well do what you gotta do. The look on her face after my response? Priceless. I also voiced my opinion about some items within my church that needed to be remove as they provide no use for any of the church functions. The bishop tried to intimidate me by making it my responsibility to remove them and to clean up the mess that came with it, but I was unmoved by his tactic. In fact, one of my uncles told me he will come down to help me do the job, free of charge.
- More driven to start working towards my dream career. Roughly 90% of the thoughts that's been in my head lately has been visualizing myself as an NFL General Manager and making moves that will get me there. I've been very active in reaching out to people that have networking credentials and finding ways to meet them in-person. I feel like I now know, deep down within me, what I want to do with my life. It's now about making moves and putting myself out there to get to where I need to go. Being that I'm now a semester and a half away from graduating, my focus has now been looking for an entry-level job or internships in the career field I'm going into. The way I'm being active so far, I'm bound to land something coming up.
- Interest in women have gone way down. Because of my drive to accomplish my future career and newfound indifference to people and their opinions about me, my interest in women is almost nonexistent. At the same time, my standards in regard to women have gone up as well. I've already mentioned in one of my earlier posts how I went though my contacts on Facebook and remove myself from any and every girl whom have been nothing but an emotional/mental blockage in my past and present. I'm now starting to find out what type of women I'm attracted to. I'm more attracted to the submissive types and the ones whom will actually support my career that I will be pursuing. I'm no longer attracted to the strong-willed, superficial, narrow-minded, man-hating women that seem to be prevalent among my age-range (early to late 20's). The way I see it, if you're not fully on-board to where I'm going in life and know your role as a woman in the relationship, then I have no time for you and you best to find yourself a beta man who will tend to your every whim. Don't get me wrong, I do see myself getting married in the future. But my career is more important now than trying to find someone to be with. For a long time, before the subs, I felt just having one girl in my life would make it seem so much better. Now? I only see it as a hinderance unless she's willing to accept the fact that my future goals are more important than her right now. I feel like I now know when to show a girl some attention when it's warranted, but never am I going to shower a girl with affection and attention on every breaking moment (Reading Ben's adventures lately have given me great insight). There are plenty of fishes in the sea, no need to be chasing after one when they will come to you eventually if you focus on other things.
That's it from my insight in Stage 3 so far. Tomorrow will mark 21 days since on Stage 3 and will be beginning Stage 4 on next week. Looking forward to it.
