02-28-2015, 01:57 PM
Stage 5, day 4
Since I've started stage 5, I've been drawn toward reaching a balance. I've been clearing all sorts of resistance, that has influenced my behavior. Maybe those behaviors were supposed to happen (since each stage is an open loop, that is later on closed), or maybe I was exhibiting plain old resistance.
From time to time, I still feel as if I'm pissing everybody off. In other times, I don't really care.
Still, I'm not sure if that's really true or if I'm just freaking out because I've left so much old stuff behind that I can't recognize my own personality anymore. Surely though, the new "me" is much better at managing people, working productively, reaching goals and in general setting the tone for my own life.
I just don't seem to be able to get excited about it. Probably I'll be able to do that when the dust settles in and I've grown more familiar to my new "me" (which is still changing).
Since I've started stage 5, I've been drawn toward reaching a balance. I've been clearing all sorts of resistance, that has influenced my behavior. Maybe those behaviors were supposed to happen (since each stage is an open loop, that is later on closed), or maybe I was exhibiting plain old resistance.
From time to time, I still feel as if I'm pissing everybody off. In other times, I don't really care.
Still, I'm not sure if that's really true or if I'm just freaking out because I've left so much old stuff behind that I can't recognize my own personality anymore. Surely though, the new "me" is much better at managing people, working productively, reaching goals and in general setting the tone for my own life.
I just don't seem to be able to get excited about it. Probably I'll be able to do that when the dust settles in and I've grown more familiar to my new "me" (which is still changing).
