02-22-2015, 09:43 AM
Listening Time: 14 hours
So tonight will be my last night on Stage 2, and then tomorrow I will update my iPod and begin Stage 3, the Big Guns. I figured today I will make a summary on my experience with Stage 2:
Compared to Stage 1, Stage 2 is definitely more toned down and smoother. The effects of Stage 2 were somewhat similar to Stage 1, like decrease in BS tolerance, sex drive decreased, indifference to others, etc. However, it was very hard to notice the changes happening within Stage 2. It was very subtle, almost to the point I even wondered if anything was happening. Credit that to the Naturalizer, as I've read from other AM6 journals that the users have experienced the same thing as well. But thankfully, there were some noticeable changes.
- I definitely have developed a strong sense of self-worth and self-awareness. During the early part of Stage 2, I had this strong urge to take better care of myself, both mentally and physically. I started working out at the gym way more than I did before the subs (I'm now working out 4 times a week, compared to just once or twice a week). I'm more aware of how I dress, so I started dressing more presentable or at least how I felt that day. The biggest difference about this change is that it's not for approval of others, but just because I wanted these changes for myself. Nobody had to force me to make these changes, which before the subs was definitely something I was being hounded on by others. Even though my wardrobe hasn't been upgraded much, lately I've been buying whatever clothes possible to look my best whenever I go out. But again, these surges of change has been because I wanted to feel good about myself. Whenever I looked into the mirror, I saw someone who's slowly bringing his potential to life and whom is definitely a great catch. I couldn't help but smile a lot whenever I saw myself in the mirror. And I wanted to make that smile permanent for myself. So the changes started becoming habits and, hopefully, they will remain with me throughout the rest of the training and beyond.
- I'm now noticing that people are aware of my presence. Lately I've been noticing that I've been making a lot of eye-contact with people throughout the day. Even though I would have sunglasses on when outside, I would venture to look at others in the eye. To be non-threatening, I would make sure to smile or have a smirk on my face whenever I make eye-contact. But in the end, people would definitely look in my direction. I noticed most, especially women, would break eye-contact before I did. Granted my eye-contact is not as strong and I would even break contact on occasion. But it's a strong change that the subs are doing something to me, as I would rarely make strong eye-contact before the subs.
- My body language is starting to become more alpha as well. I'm noticing I've been walking at my own pace, with my back straight, chest out, and walking with a purpose. Sometimes, whenever I'm listening to my music out in public, I'd be so into myself that I would be walking to the beat of the music and start humming to what was playing. The biggest change about it? I was carefree on what others thought of me. I notice some where intrigued by my nonchalant, alpha-like demeanor and women, sometimes, would send a small smile in my direction when I would notice their presence. But all in all, my demeanor in how I walk and how I project myself is the biggest change I've noticed since being on Stage 2.
- Others are starting to see changes in me as well. I get compliments from relatives from the likes of being called "handsome" to "radiant". I notice my uncles and other male relatives treat me on the same level as them, if not more so. Even my own brother, whom is years older than me, is asking me a lot for my opinions and curious about everything I've been up to lately. Women around my age were mostly hits and misses. Some would compliment me on my style of clothing (which means they do have an interest in me) while others would just completely ignore me. It could very well be intimidation on their end, but most of the time I didn't let that phase me. With women though, sometimes my approval-seeking habits would appear and would want to be noticed by them. But once I pondered on those feelings, they went away and I'd continued on with the rest of my day. This means changes are still being made in these areas, thankfully in the right direction.
That's it for my summary on Stage 2. Tomorrow night I will finally be beginning the Big Guns of Stage 3. One thing that has been helpful on this journey so far is to let the subs do their jobs and I continue on with my daily life. However, I do make it my business to be active and to be as social as I'm willing to let myself be. Surprisingly, these are also part of the instructions of AM6. Just play the subs, be active, and go about your day like any other. So with that being said, bring on the Big Guns.
So tonight will be my last night on Stage 2, and then tomorrow I will update my iPod and begin Stage 3, the Big Guns. I figured today I will make a summary on my experience with Stage 2:
Compared to Stage 1, Stage 2 is definitely more toned down and smoother. The effects of Stage 2 were somewhat similar to Stage 1, like decrease in BS tolerance, sex drive decreased, indifference to others, etc. However, it was very hard to notice the changes happening within Stage 2. It was very subtle, almost to the point I even wondered if anything was happening. Credit that to the Naturalizer, as I've read from other AM6 journals that the users have experienced the same thing as well. But thankfully, there were some noticeable changes.
- I definitely have developed a strong sense of self-worth and self-awareness. During the early part of Stage 2, I had this strong urge to take better care of myself, both mentally and physically. I started working out at the gym way more than I did before the subs (I'm now working out 4 times a week, compared to just once or twice a week). I'm more aware of how I dress, so I started dressing more presentable or at least how I felt that day. The biggest difference about this change is that it's not for approval of others, but just because I wanted these changes for myself. Nobody had to force me to make these changes, which before the subs was definitely something I was being hounded on by others. Even though my wardrobe hasn't been upgraded much, lately I've been buying whatever clothes possible to look my best whenever I go out. But again, these surges of change has been because I wanted to feel good about myself. Whenever I looked into the mirror, I saw someone who's slowly bringing his potential to life and whom is definitely a great catch. I couldn't help but smile a lot whenever I saw myself in the mirror. And I wanted to make that smile permanent for myself. So the changes started becoming habits and, hopefully, they will remain with me throughout the rest of the training and beyond.
- I'm now noticing that people are aware of my presence. Lately I've been noticing that I've been making a lot of eye-contact with people throughout the day. Even though I would have sunglasses on when outside, I would venture to look at others in the eye. To be non-threatening, I would make sure to smile or have a smirk on my face whenever I make eye-contact. But in the end, people would definitely look in my direction. I noticed most, especially women, would break eye-contact before I did. Granted my eye-contact is not as strong and I would even break contact on occasion. But it's a strong change that the subs are doing something to me, as I would rarely make strong eye-contact before the subs.
- My body language is starting to become more alpha as well. I'm noticing I've been walking at my own pace, with my back straight, chest out, and walking with a purpose. Sometimes, whenever I'm listening to my music out in public, I'd be so into myself that I would be walking to the beat of the music and start humming to what was playing. The biggest change about it? I was carefree on what others thought of me. I notice some where intrigued by my nonchalant, alpha-like demeanor and women, sometimes, would send a small smile in my direction when I would notice their presence. But all in all, my demeanor in how I walk and how I project myself is the biggest change I've noticed since being on Stage 2.
- Others are starting to see changes in me as well. I get compliments from relatives from the likes of being called "handsome" to "radiant". I notice my uncles and other male relatives treat me on the same level as them, if not more so. Even my own brother, whom is years older than me, is asking me a lot for my opinions and curious about everything I've been up to lately. Women around my age were mostly hits and misses. Some would compliment me on my style of clothing (which means they do have an interest in me) while others would just completely ignore me. It could very well be intimidation on their end, but most of the time I didn't let that phase me. With women though, sometimes my approval-seeking habits would appear and would want to be noticed by them. But once I pondered on those feelings, they went away and I'd continued on with the rest of my day. This means changes are still being made in these areas, thankfully in the right direction.
That's it for my summary on Stage 2. Tomorrow night I will finally be beginning the Big Guns of Stage 3. One thing that has been helpful on this journey so far is to let the subs do their jobs and I continue on with my daily life. However, I do make it my business to be active and to be as social as I'm willing to let myself be. Surprisingly, these are also part of the instructions of AM6. Just play the subs, be active, and go about your day like any other. So with that being said, bring on the Big Guns.
