02-08-2015, 06:07 PM
Day 30. Nearly completed my second stage to the Alpha male subs. Something recently has clicked inside of me. Like a switch. I have visualised a new way to be as an alpha. I can see myself, head held high; alpha male gaze, outward grin aka jerk mode. Like I am testing the next person who comes along - are you an asset or are you a liability?
It is safe to say the beta male sympathy I felt for people is slowly turning into impatience and indifference. I only care about my own status and legacy. The life I leave behind WILL affect the people in the world in some form or another. Whether people love me or people hate me they WILL NOT ignore me. The second stage subs have brought out the desire to be in the spotlight, not, per se, in an ego-tistical way, but with the need to step up and show the world my value.
I want to so desparately do my own thing it is not even remotely funny to me anymore. I want my own career that I own myself and can proudly go up to people and say "I do X Y and Z without A B and C and I feel like a motherf***king king"
I am just replenishing the hours in the next few days for any that i missed from the second stage
Then it is onto the 3rd stage of the subs...
Stay tuned
