01-30-2015, 07:01 PM
Listening Time: 13 hours
Just want to update some experiences I had today. I definitely believe the sub is helping with these experiences.
- Today I decided to dress semi-formal, just because I felt like dressing nice. So I put on a nice dress shirt, a sweater, some clean jeans, and then topped off with one of my favorite fedora hats. I really felt awesome when I looked at the final product in the mirror. Not to sound conceded, but I felt very attracted to what I saw in the mirror. I believe the subs are helping me to dress up not so to impress others, but to feel good about who I am and to appreciate dressing up for myself only. I truly didn't care what others thought about how I looked, as long as I loved how I saw myself in the mirror.
After dressing up and heading off to class, I felt like I had a lot of eyes staring at me. No matter where I went or what I did, I could sense that people where looking at me different. Women were no different, although they would stare much longer and some even shyly looked down and smiled afterwards.
- I believe the subs are manifesting new friends into my life, as it described in the descriptions of the program. In one of my classes so far, I've became friends with a guy who share a lot of similar interests and beliefs as I do. Today, before class, we had a deep conversation about the educational system here in the US, how it's becoming a joke and that society has brainwashed most kids into thinking a college education is the only route to being successful in life. In a way, I felt like my new friend is on the enlightened path as me. I don't know if he's also using subs, but it seems like he too is aware of society's programming of men become betas. Hopefully, I'll find more friends who think and believe the same way.
- I went to the bank to deposit my check from work. I was directed to a young teller who just opened up her post. She was attractive, looked like a girl-next-door type. I wasn't interested in talking much as I just wanted to handle my business and head home from a long day at work/school. So as she was checking my ID and account, she goes on to tell me that the check may not be accepted until tomorrow morning. I made a facial expression as I was suspicious of the statement, but I didn't think much of it. Well, I guess the manager of the bank must have saw the expression on my face as he came over to her post to see if everything was alright. As we both were caught off by surprise, I explained to the manager what she told me and that I wasn't worried about her statement. The manager was relieved after I explained to him what happened, and he went along to introduce himself to me before leaving.
Anyways, while she was processing my check, the young teller is asking me personal questions like what job do I do and what's my major in college at the moment. Not really trying to impress her, I just told her what all she needed to know and shut up afterwards. It was obvious she was interested, as she would look down and smile with her braces in her mouth. I also noticed she had a ring on her finger, so I just wasn't interested in taking the conversation beyond what was needed. But once my check was finished and I left, she had a big smile on her face upon seeing me leave.
- I had recently experienced some resistance during the week. It all started when my mom got upset about my brother marrying someone that's not like her. She kinda took her frustration out on me and my dad. I respectfully held my ground, but I felt like I was stuck in a house where people hardly see me as a grown man. I felt like I might as well stop listening to the subs since it's not making things better in my house. Thankfully I didn't give in to those thoughts and continued listening to the subs throughout the week.
That's it for the updates. Looking forward to more growth from AM6.
Just want to update some experiences I had today. I definitely believe the sub is helping with these experiences.
- Today I decided to dress semi-formal, just because I felt like dressing nice. So I put on a nice dress shirt, a sweater, some clean jeans, and then topped off with one of my favorite fedora hats. I really felt awesome when I looked at the final product in the mirror. Not to sound conceded, but I felt very attracted to what I saw in the mirror. I believe the subs are helping me to dress up not so to impress others, but to feel good about who I am and to appreciate dressing up for myself only. I truly didn't care what others thought about how I looked, as long as I loved how I saw myself in the mirror.
After dressing up and heading off to class, I felt like I had a lot of eyes staring at me. No matter where I went or what I did, I could sense that people where looking at me different. Women were no different, although they would stare much longer and some even shyly looked down and smiled afterwards.
- I believe the subs are manifesting new friends into my life, as it described in the descriptions of the program. In one of my classes so far, I've became friends with a guy who share a lot of similar interests and beliefs as I do. Today, before class, we had a deep conversation about the educational system here in the US, how it's becoming a joke and that society has brainwashed most kids into thinking a college education is the only route to being successful in life. In a way, I felt like my new friend is on the enlightened path as me. I don't know if he's also using subs, but it seems like he too is aware of society's programming of men become betas. Hopefully, I'll find more friends who think and believe the same way.
- I went to the bank to deposit my check from work. I was directed to a young teller who just opened up her post. She was attractive, looked like a girl-next-door type. I wasn't interested in talking much as I just wanted to handle my business and head home from a long day at work/school. So as she was checking my ID and account, she goes on to tell me that the check may not be accepted until tomorrow morning. I made a facial expression as I was suspicious of the statement, but I didn't think much of it. Well, I guess the manager of the bank must have saw the expression on my face as he came over to her post to see if everything was alright. As we both were caught off by surprise, I explained to the manager what she told me and that I wasn't worried about her statement. The manager was relieved after I explained to him what happened, and he went along to introduce himself to me before leaving.
Anyways, while she was processing my check, the young teller is asking me personal questions like what job do I do and what's my major in college at the moment. Not really trying to impress her, I just told her what all she needed to know and shut up afterwards. It was obvious she was interested, as she would look down and smile with her braces in her mouth. I also noticed she had a ring on her finger, so I just wasn't interested in taking the conversation beyond what was needed. But once my check was finished and I left, she had a big smile on her face upon seeing me leave.
- I had recently experienced some resistance during the week. It all started when my mom got upset about my brother marrying someone that's not like her. She kinda took her frustration out on me and my dad. I respectfully held my ground, but I felt like I was stuck in a house where people hardly see me as a grown man. I felt like I might as well stop listening to the subs since it's not making things better in my house. Thankfully I didn't give in to those thoughts and continued listening to the subs throughout the week.
That's it for the updates. Looking forward to more growth from AM6.
