01-25-2015, 02:47 PM
A day of 'practicing the power of now'
Or at least trying to. Working on things that pull up massive amounts of resistance. Slowly slowly the presence is growing and my ability to observe the energy of frustration without it pushing me off task is growing.
The sharpness of my mind hasn't returned. Still feeling dull. Every now and then the temptation to grab some adhd pills crops up but I just remember that the costs far outweigh the benefits.
Also went back to the gym for the first time in a month and a half today - trainer gave me a big hug! Commented on how I'd put on a bit of weight but that he admired me for taking these knocks and coming back.
I must be around about 20 days into stage 5, and the question arises about what I do next. I might just do the refresher stage for two months before moving to base. Not sure yet.
Or at least trying to. Working on things that pull up massive amounts of resistance. Slowly slowly the presence is growing and my ability to observe the energy of frustration without it pushing me off task is growing.
The sharpness of my mind hasn't returned. Still feeling dull. Every now and then the temptation to grab some adhd pills crops up but I just remember that the costs far outweigh the benefits.
Also went back to the gym for the first time in a month and a half today - trainer gave me a big hug! Commented on how I'd put on a bit of weight but that he admired me for taking these knocks and coming back.
I must be around about 20 days into stage 5, and the question arises about what I do next. I might just do the refresher stage for two months before moving to base. Not sure yet.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
