01-24-2015, 04:46 AM
Since listening to stage 2 I've been able to pinpoint certain issues I have regarding my focus and concentration.
Firstly, you should know. My focus and concentration are awful. It takes me all day just to "wake up" and by that point its night time and I need to sleep again. It's very hard for me to get into things and dedicate my efforts 100%. However I've noticed that once I am in the zone, there is little I can't accomplish.
I've noticed I have been suffering from social anxiety and this is what is contributing to it. I don't just have it whilst out and about with new people. I also get it with my family. It's hard for me to be "me" around my parents partly because of my issues growing up in school with little to no help when I was bullied, manipulated etc
On the plus side however, I am making manual efforts to combat this. I noticed I am opening up around my family more and I am slowly becoming myself around people instead of just being quiet and not knowing what to say.
A new girl dealer started at my work too and we got along straight away which was a good indication of the subs at work. (by the way I work in a casino as a poker dealer, not selling drugs on the streets or anything...at least not during the day)
So overall I'm glad these subs are brining these things to light. It might have been a better idea to listen to the emotional past healing subs that are free but too late now. I will continue to battle anything that comes up as I stride towards my road to success!
