01-21-2015, 01:37 PM
Thanks for the tip - I haven't looked at Les fehmi for a while, might give it another shot!
Waking up to reality sure is painful but refreshing at the same time, like jumping into an ice pool.
Painful jolts are horribly unsettling but have to be if they're going to serve their purpose.
There's these two nasty passive aggressive Young guys at work who've been making snide comments about me this last week. I've been slow and looking like shit because of the drugs come down and what that's done to my motivation, routine and energy levels. Today was particularly bad and I was furious, but unable to do something.
That fire though, I need it to propel me so a sick part of me welcomed the pain of it. I can't respond in this environment in any other way but to laugh it off, I don't have the wit right now to do so another way, though I would love to crack this guy in his smug face I can't do that either.
Anyway. As I said. Without that I wouldn't be at home now after a work out about to settle down for meditation, Making sure I keep water by my bed so I hydrate and get my system going right as soon as I wake up, and relishing (and being quite desperate) for the moment where I've secured my independence from this bullshit.
Waking up to reality sure is painful but refreshing at the same time, like jumping into an ice pool.
Painful jolts are horribly unsettling but have to be if they're going to serve their purpose.
There's these two nasty passive aggressive Young guys at work who've been making snide comments about me this last week. I've been slow and looking like shit because of the drugs come down and what that's done to my motivation, routine and energy levels. Today was particularly bad and I was furious, but unable to do something.
That fire though, I need it to propel me so a sick part of me welcomed the pain of it. I can't respond in this environment in any other way but to laugh it off, I don't have the wit right now to do so another way, though I would love to crack this guy in his smug face I can't do that either.
Anyway. As I said. Without that I wouldn't be at home now after a work out about to settle down for meditation, Making sure I keep water by my bed so I hydrate and get my system going right as soon as I wake up, and relishing (and being quite desperate) for the moment where I've secured my independence from this bullshit.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
