01-20-2015, 08:22 AM
Not really. I've done am6 once before. If my judgment is that my time is better spent now doing somthing else before starting it again then that's the right judgment. Pushing though a desire to quit is something i do all the time and enjoy.
Still, I appreciate the sentiment behind your comment.
That aside. As I said I was considering stopping. I've decided to continue to the end now. In privately journalling and in posting here it did occur to me that this sense of overwhelm was untennable, and it was necessary to just start saying no to a lot of things. I've simplified my life and my goals drastically, cutting out options open to me which might yield positive results but none the less can wait for anothe time.
I am calling people out now on BS behaviour. close friends, associates, and colleagues at work, most importantly myself. One of the things that happened in the last months that i didn't report is that i was, you might say somewhat magically, put in front of of a few alphas who really called me out on a lot. Frankly it was painful and humiliating, but very instructive. The lessons of those days are still coming out as i journal myself privately now that the haze of the prescription medications has gone a little.
Still, I appreciate the sentiment behind your comment.
That aside. As I said I was considering stopping. I've decided to continue to the end now. In privately journalling and in posting here it did occur to me that this sense of overwhelm was untennable, and it was necessary to just start saying no to a lot of things. I've simplified my life and my goals drastically, cutting out options open to me which might yield positive results but none the less can wait for anothe time.
I am calling people out now on BS behaviour. close friends, associates, and colleagues at work, most importantly myself. One of the things that happened in the last months that i didn't report is that i was, you might say somewhat magically, put in front of of a few alphas who really called me out on a lot. Frankly it was painful and humiliating, but very instructive. The lessons of those days are still coming out as i journal myself privately now that the haze of the prescription medications has gone a little.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
